Behind the Camera

Chapter Seven

"Wait no look at this one," I say and Erana starts laughing at the photos we had just taken. We were on set, and god was I freezing.

I look over at her and laugh and she takes a step back. I grab onto her hand and pull her closer as I show her more photos.

I hadn't realize such a small act could amount to me feeling so much.

I was happy, feeling her warm skin against my cold fingers.

"Oh god that ones horrible," She says zooming into her face.

"Which one?" I ask and she points at the one I was on. We begin to walk away but I pull oh her hand making sure she was following behind me.

I notice Sophia taking a video of us and at first I got nervous, pulling my hand away from Erana but then I realize there's no wrong in holding another's hand.

I fall into the cast chair tiredly and close my eyes.

"It's freezing," I say and search my pocket for a cig.

"Lighter?" I turn to Erana and she looks down while digging in her pocket. She pulls out a liter and lights up my cigarette for me.

"Thank you sugarplum," I say which causes her to laugh.

We've gained back our friendship and I am so thankful that we did.

At times the urge to kiss her is just so strong, but I've managed to control myself so well.

I've acted like nothing has happened in the past, I simply treat her like a good friend which is what she is.

"Pass it over sexy lady," Sophia insists and I turn to her and hold it out for her to hit.

Honestly, I need to stop smoking so much. At this point, it's the only thing keeping me sane.

With the stress of acting.. There's no way I could go a day without smoking at least 3 and most of the cast would agree.

I feel a warm hand against my neck and I immediately know it's Erana's.

I hand Sophia the cig and turn to Erana who's eyes were closed and she was cuddled up in a ball on the small chair. Her fingers were slowly grazing the back of my head causing me to smile. I lean over and she pulls me in and I feel her kiss the top of my head.

Friends do that right? I tell myself they do and move on.

I throw my arm out and Sophia hands me back my cigarette, I take a hit and exhale.

"Aw lovers on and off screen," Sarah says and I sit up smiling over to Erana who seemed to be uncomfortable causing me to become the same.

"Shut up bitch," I reply and smack her playfully. She sits onto my lap and drapes her legs over my chair kissing my cheek. "You know I'm kidding, we're the real lovers," She says and I smile and almost immediately look to see a reaction from Erana except there was none.

She wasn't even looking in my direction. She stared down at her phone, texting who knows who but must be good considering she's smiling.

"Who ya texting?" I ask her and she smiles and looks up, looking at Sarah but back to me.

"Yeah who you texting," Sarah says nudging her with her foot. "I don't know why don't you ask your dad Sarah?" She mumbles and I laugh. "None of your business," She adds and I crease my eyebrows but quickly stop myself from looking upset and calm my face.

"Oh so it is someone special," Sarah assumes and I look forward clenching my jaw.

God what the fuck is wrong with me.. I literally have a boyfriend and I have the nerve to get upset about her texting only god knows who?

"Maybe," She replies and I look over to her and she looks into my eyes and then looks away, scared to look for too long.

"Look," She says probably directed to Sarah and shows a skinny blonde, blue eyes, curly hair, perfect facial features, probably some model. She was basically a living barbie.

I look to her phone, not even realizing I was making a disgusted face towards it. I grab her phone with my free hand and Sarah scrolls her instagram. She was a model and had over a million followers. Jealously stings my heart. Of course she has to talk to the prettier version of me, fuck.

"Alright alright," Erana says taking it back swallowing a limp looking at my face. "Sarah can you?" I ask and she looks to me before getting up off of me.

"I'm going to use the bathroom," I tell them and walk off trying to remain calm.

I go to the porta potty that was on set.

I notice it was being used so I stand outside my arms crossed as I waited impatiently.

"Scene 7 call out!" I hear from a distance and I clench my jaw pulling on the door, just as Shannon walks out. "Jesus Mia," She laughs and then notices I'm upset. I wasn't even trying to make it apparent.

"Hey you okay?" She asks as they call out scene 7 again.

It was my scene with Erana, of course.

"I'm fine," I mumble and walk off, forgetting to even use the porta potty not that I even had to.

I get into position to start the scene and I look to see Erana who was also where she was supposed to be.

I guess it works out perfect because I was supposed to be angry in this scene which I was, with or without the camera.

The scene begins and I stare at Erana intently. Trying my best to not break character.

"I bet you think about all the different ways that you can get back at me," She says and I look over to her almost sarcastically.. I wish I could make her jealous the way she makes me jealous.. But you can't make someone who doesn't even want you to begin with jealous. "If you had the guts," She adds and it's like she was saying this all in real life.. God my blood was running hot.

She comes up to me, continuing the scene. She was really being an asshole which in reality, that side of her doesn't exist at least not that I ever see.

I stare into her eyes as she says her lines, looking down at her lips but up quickly hoping she didn't notice. She turns and I was supposed to shove her with my hand, instead I kicked her with my foot but she went along with it.

She turns to me and says her lines and I follow with mine.

"You're not worth it," I say, going off the script but I don't think she even noticed. Or maybe she did..

"And scene, amazing work ladies!"

I walk off and wait for my next scene which was as a group.

It wasn't long before then and we're all positioned around the fire.

The scene begins and I follow the script, which wasn't hard.

I watch as Erana licks her food sexually and I shout my line maybe a little earlier than I was supposed to, "Would you stop!"

The girls fall silent and I continue on with my lines. It wasn't hard to act upset because I already was, especially at Erana.

Although I have no reason to be.. She did absolutely nothing wrong.

I'm just some crazy bitch who's in love with an amazing girl who doesn't want any sort of relationship past the friendship with me.

I'm not used to getting rejected, this sucks.