Behind the Camera

Chapter Six

I'm not sure if it's just me but god is this show exhaustive to film. The amount of effort we all put in... It can't be just me.

I lean back on my cast chair and close my eyes. Only a few minutes pass before I'm called to film another scene.

"You okay?" Erana says and I look to her and nod tiredly. "Me too," She says assuringly and I smile. We film our last scene for the day and of course it was the most exhaustive one yet.

There was a small kitty pool used as a prop and both Erana and I nearly passed out in it. "Smile!" Someone says and I cuddle up to Erana and the picture was taken. My hand touches her arm and she shifts to be closer to me... Or maybe I pulled her closer.

We're only a couple weeks into the filming process and damn do I need a break.

We're brought back to our condos and I basically run into the house. I hop in the shower and immediately go to bed.

I climb under the covers and grab hold of my stuffed animal, we decided to name it Piggy.

"Mia," Erana says at my doorway and I look to see her looking absolutely broken.

I rush to her and grab hold of her hugging her tightly.

"What's wrong?" I ask pulling away.

"I spilt water all over my bed." She says and I smile in relief.

"God I thought someone died," I mumble and she shakes her and and it falls onto my shoulder.

"Honestly I'd be crying too," I comfort her and rub her back.

"Here come on," I say and grab hold of her hands and walk backwards until I reach my bed. She climbs under the covers and then looks up to me with puppy dog eyes.

I immediately knew what she was going to ask me to get.

I smile and walk out. I go to her room across the hall and grab the pig that was at the end of her bed, it was dry. Her bed seemed to be dry as well but I didn't even bother to check and see if she was being honest.. I was glad she was sleeping with me.

"Thank you," She says and I smile at her already cuddling mine close.

I climb on the other side and turn off the nightlight. The only sound was the outside city that never sleeps.

A few seconds pass before she turns to me and we make eye contact.

I think for a bit before I come up with something to say.

"Do you remember when we fell asleep on the phone that one time?" I ask and she smiles and nods. "how could I forget?" she says and I softly smile. "I heard that girl, I don't know who, but it woke me up," I tell her and she visibly gets nervous, swallowing a lump and turning to stare at the ceiling.

"I'm sorry I just-"

"No Erana, don't be sorry I'm not mad at you," I say and sit up looking down at her, although it was dark.

"I'm just curious, that's all," I smile and she closes her eyes.

"Her name was Marise, I went on a couple dates with her that's it, we aren't talking anymore," She tells me and I nod.

"She thinks I'm too 'distracted' I guess," She says and I roll my eyes laying back down.

"What a lame excuse, she was lucky to have you,"  I say and I watch as she sits up this time.

"What is it?" I ask once I see her bury her head into her knees. I sit up to be closer to her, laying my hand on her back for comfort.

She looks back at me and I smile softly, trying to be comforting.

She looks at me almost scared, but I tried my best to continue to smile softly at the brunette in front of me.

I look away from her, looking down at my blanket because I wasn't sure what she expected me to say or do.

I feel her shift in the bed and suddenly her lips were against mine, colliding like the waves hitting the shore.

Her hand grabs my face and I touch her wrist causing her to pull back and immediately look away.

"Mia I-"

"It's okay," I say and pull her by the shoulder for her to face me again.

I go to lean back in for another kiss, grabbing her face in the process but she pulls back just before our lips met again.

"We can't Mia," She says and I pull away looking at her, the anger pinching to come out.

"You kissed me," I remind her and she shakes her head.

"I know I shouldn't have I'm sorry," She says and I throw the blanket off of me and stand up.

"Erana, why can't we?" I ask and she looks up to me standing over her.

"You have a boyfriend! And we work together.." She mumbles and I sarcastically laugh.

"Do you even care about how I feel and what I want? I mean you never seem to ask me, you just assume I don't want it," I say and she exhales.

"I don't think it's what I need...What we need right now, I'm sorry Mia I just I got caught up. Please don't be mad at me," She says and I nod my head putting my lips in a straight line, showing i'm disappointed.

"You know what, fine Erana. You win." I say throwing my hands up and she shakes her head. "I'm not trying to win anything Mia, I just don't want to make your life any more hard than it already is," She says and I roll my eyes looking away. "You're doing a terrible job," I say and walk out of my room going to the bathroom to get some space.

God she's so clueless.

She doesn't even realize how madly in love I am with her. I look forward to the days we get to kiss on set.. Days that are coming sooner than I think she even realizes.

I turn on the sink and splash my face with some warm water, grabbing the towel hanging up to dry it off.

I take a few minutes to myself before going back to my bedroom. Surprisingly, Erana was still there.

"You're not mad at me right?" She asks and I shake my head with a smile. "No, you're right, we're better off only being friends," I reply and she looks at me, the sadness in her eyes apparent with her stares. "Mia it's not that I-"

"Just drop it, okay?" I interrupt her and she nods looking me up and down before laying down.

I climb in bed and lay beside her.

I could tell she was having trouble sleeping, just like me.

God I wish we could just hold each other..

It's obvious she doesn't want me, if she did she could have me in a heartbeat.