Behind the Camera

Chapter Twenty Two

"Brody.. I think it's about time you ask Mia out on a date don't ya think?" Sarah says and I swallow a lump in my throat and laugh nervously.

"Oh shut up," He says and playfully throws the towel that was made to be on his lap across the table at Sarah.

"I'm just saying.." She tells us and smiles to me and I clear my throat.

"Excuse me," I start as I stand up, "I've gotta use the bathroom," I finish and set the towel that was on my lap on the table.

I walk inside and go straight to the bathroom. I didn't even have to go I just needed to get away from the suffocating stares that I was receiving out there.

I hear knocking on the door and my mind immediately betrays me. "Go away Erana," I shout. "It's Brody," I hear and I cover my mouth almost as if I've been caught.

I look at myself in the mirror and fix up my mascara that was starting to smudge before turning and opening the door.

"I'm sorry I just assumed she was coming to check up," I mumble and look up to him. "No worries.. I'm the one that came to check up.. You okay? I'm sorry if what Sarah said upset you I'm not trying to like push myself onto you," He replies and I shake my head with a smile.

"No of course not. It had nothing to do with that.." I assure him even though what I was saying was a total lie. "You sure?" He asks touching my shoulder and I look down but back up. "Positive."

"Well if you're not opposed to it, I'd love to take you out," He says and I'm taken back by it. "Oh um yeah I mean yes," I stutter and he laughs under his breath. "Yeah? You sure?" He smiles down at me rubbing both of my arms and I nod trying to not show I'm uncomfortable.

"Hey," I hear Erana's voice say and we both turn to her. "Hey you ruined a moment," Brody says wrapping his arm around me and I avoid looking over at Erana as I stare to the ground.

"My bad," I hear her say with a light laugh.

I can't tell if she's upset or just doesn't care.. A part of me wants her to be upset.

"Let's go eat?" I suggest and begin to walk back outside.

"She said yes!" Brody says and throws his hands up. I look to Sarah and shake my head as I sit down. I'm gonna strangle this girl.

The rest of dinner was a bit less stressful but still super uncomfortable for me.

I haven't looked over to Erana since we got here.. I was terrified of how she might look back at me. I almost felt guilty but I definitely shouldn't be.

"I'll see you two tomorrow," Sarah says and pulls us both into a hug as we were heading back to get some sleep.

It was already 10 pm and we both had to shower and wake up early tomorrow.

We walk out of Sarah's place and it was silent for a few seconds before she decided to speak up.

"So are you just gonna keep ignoring me all night or are you gonna talk to me or I mean at least look at me," She says as we reach our door and she fits the key in to unlock it.

"I don't know what you're talking about I haven't been ignoring you," I tell her and we both walk inside.

I close the door behind me and take off my shoes.

"Yeah Mia you definitely did," She replies and I finally look to her.

She didn't seem upset, almost as if she knew it was all just a plan to make her jealous.

"What do you want me to say?" I question and she shrugs walking backwards before she turns to walk to her room.

"I don't know maybe try telling me the truth?" She suggests and I clear my throat tucking a piece of hair that was beginning to dangle in my face behind my ear. "About what?" I ask following her through the hall to go to my bedroom.

"Do you like him?" She asks turning around standing at her doorway as I stood in mine. "Don't even act dumb Mia just answer my simple question. I'm not going to be mad if you do," She adds and I look down leaning against the doorframe and crossing my arms.

"Maybe.." I shrug and then look up to her. She raises her eyebrows and nods. "Maybe? So that means you do and you're just scared to admit that to me because of everything that went down before.." She assumes and I nod desperately trying to find something to lay my eyes on.

"I guess so.." I mumble and watch as she scratches the back of her head indicating she had something to say. "What?" I ask and she shrugs shaking her head in denial.

"Nothing just surprised that's all.." She simply said and I furrow my eyebrows towards her in confusion.

"Why are you so surprised? He's so sweet," I reply and she laughs under her breath.

"He really is, I'm happy for you, you definitely deserve someone like him. He totally is head over heals for you already," She says and I look between both of her eyes searching for any sign of.. well anything.

"Does it not bother you?" I ask and immediately regret how upfront I was about it.

"What? Brody and you? I mean no.. I wouldn't prefer to ever be like a third wheel but as your friend no I'm happy for you I mean it," She assures me and I shake my head standing up straight.

"Okay cool," I mumble and straight my lips almost as if I was showing her I was disappointed in her reaction. "Cool," She replies nodding her head.

"Well I'm in for the night, if you need anything Im right here," She says and grabs onto the side of her door.

"Yeah same here.." I respond and she nods towards me. "Night," She mumbles.

"Goodnight," I say and close my door.

I press my back against it and fall to the ground huddling up with my knees.

So much for making her jealous...

I just want to know what's going on inside her head... what she's thinking.

There has to be more to this then what she's showing me. She has to be jealous deep down. Before we even started doing anything she would get jealous and now that we did and it's over she doesn't? It just really doesn't make any sense.

Maybe she didn't like being with a woman or well me.. Maybe I did something wrong and she disliked it but never had the guts to tell me..

I really don't get what is so wrong with me that she can't be with me.. It's always been me chasing her and for once I just want to stop.. For once I am truly going to stop.

I have so many scenarios playing in my head and I have still yet to pin point the one that makes the most sense.

I think I'm ready to go back home so I can be as far away from this all as I possibly can..