505 days ~ irwin

460 days before

Brin

I went 12 days without him, and I could go even further. The truth is that I didn't need him as much as I thought, but he probably needs me just as much as I don't. Although I didn't need him a part of me missed him, which drove me insane. I felt empty hearted, I sound so childish but I'm serious. We grew up together and didn't spend extensive amounts of times without each other, or at least contacting each other so it just felt weird cutting him off. I walked to school without my car, and Ashton didn't even offer me rides or anything. There was a really awkward encounter we had the other day in my driveway. I was going to go to the shops with Riley and I guess he had somewhere to go as well, we both exited our houses at the same time, I saw him coming out and I pretended not to look, I thought that I could sneak a glance then he looked directly at me, then stopped whistling what tune he was whistling. We must have stood there for minutes on end, which was uncomfortable. I think he is still angry with me, which he doesn't have the right to because what I did to him wasn't as bad as what he did to me, which is dumb because I didn't even do anything to him, it's not my fault he had "feelings" for me. We were best friends for so long I thought he wouldn't develop feelings for me, but I guess time can't stop growing feelings.

whatever this journal thing is shit

I stopped making entries for a reason

I guess life was starting to look up so I put you away

I'm sorry for the neglect journal

I'm sad now so you'll see me more,

I signed my name at the bottom of the page, followed by a heart. I took the cigarette from my mouth and putting it out next to the heart, and smiled at the beautiful mess I created. I closed my book and shoved it in through the crack of the window. I look at what was in front of me, nothing. Ashton wasn't there, he rolled down his blinds, they were down since 12 days ago. He was so mad at me he couldn't even look at me or talk to me. I don't really understand why he was so pissed if he claims to like me so much. I thought that we agreed to be friends and nothing more, and that all the kisses and make out sessions were nothing but mutual, we decided on that because we are both lonely children and sometimes need that reassurance of another human. Just because we kiss and cuddle doesn't mean were dating or like each other that way. A lot of people do that. Right?

My mind right now is everywhere and I can't think straight. I went to grab the red and white box on the window sill, and I was fresh out. I was so stressed I chucked the box right at Ashton's window.

"Brinley, bug off!" I hear him yell.

It startled me a bit because I didn't even know he was there, I was slightly embarrassed. "Shit." I mumbled under my breath.

Awesome, now he think's I'm annoying. This isn't helping my mysterious and spontaneous look I'm going for.

I think for a second, looking back at my roof and his roof. I didn't think twice about it so I jumped onto his roof, they weren't far away from each other, they were close to each other so I wasn't scared. All those ballet classes and my weight really helped me out with this one, I hardly made a sound and I was hoping not to be heard. I'm not going to break in, I just wanted a cigarette or two. I didn't even knock, I just pried the window open.

"Reynolds, fucking hell! What are you doing?" He screams, siting up from his sofa in the corner of his room.

He rearranged his room from what I remember from 12 or so days ago.

"Do you have a pack?"

"No." I could tell he was still pissed. "Now get out."

"Okay Mr. Grumpy gills." I take my head out of his house and slowly slide the window down, but slammed it just to piss him off.

I sat there for a couple more minutes, looking at my side. It felt weird being on this side looking at my house with his perspective. The moon shined on my bad side, how could he like me when he has to stare at my bad side everyday. I didn't want to jump back onto my side just yet, I wanted to take in the experience of what it was like to be Ashton Irwin.

I sit up straight and tilt my chin up. "Oh, I'm Ashton Irwin, I have wavy hair and a big attitude. I'm mad at Brinley because she's so hot and attractive, man I would hit that-" I talked in my best Ashton impression, dropping my voice 3 octaves, and flexing my muscles.

"Leave, Brin." He sounded like he lightened up a bit which made me burst into laughter.

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I making these days shorter because I feel that the chapters just drag on and so far I feel like it's super boring for you guys so I am also skipping more days because I didn't realise how long 505 days would really be so bare with me and be happy because it means you will get to after even sooner because I am really excited for the after part so you should be too and it also means that truants will be up sooner like this summer or end of spring idk yet but sonner than you think!

Thank you for reading 505 days!!!!