Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~16~ Feelings

Tyler's pov

What did happen when they were gone? It's obvious that there is something. Connor would never come inside without saying hello. He ignored everything and just went into his room. I'm going to try to get him to talk about it.

"It's Troye well not Troye but yeah you get what I mean." Connor told me but I already could've guessed that. Troye seemed upset when he walked in and he didn't even know what was wrong.

"No I don't get what you mean. What happened out there wherever you guys were. Troye is obviously upset and you are too." Connor looked down to his feet and just stood there.

"I...I wanted to kiss him." Confusion washed over me. Did he tried to kiss him and did Troye pull away or what?

"Did you try to kiss him?"

"No! I just thought about kissing him."

"Yeah so, what's wrong with that?"

"We were kinda staring in each others eyes and I may have looked at his lips, freaked out and tried to play it of casually what failed so hard. He definitely noticed it and it felt wrong to have the urge to kiss him."

"There is nothing wrong with wanting to kiss him okay! It's a normal thing, it's just as normal as wanting to kiss a girl. We already talked about this Connor. If you still think like that than it's better that Troye didn't noticed you looking at his lips. You're only going to hurt him if you can't accept this whole being gay thing." I was really getting pissed at Connor. I know it can be difficult but I thought he accepted it. It feels that because of this, a part of him doesn't even accept me or Troye. We are gay so are we weird too? He thinks he's weird for having these feelings towards a boy.

"Tyler I...."

"No Connor I'm going to leave you alone. Come back if you finally accept it and I mean really accept it." With that I left the room. I felt kinda bad with leaving him but it's the best thing to do right now. He needs to have some time on his own.

Troye's eyes were immediately on me when I came trough the door. He expected an explanation from me as to why Connor was acting like that but I couldn't give him one. I can't tell him that Connor is struggling with his sexuality.

"He needs some time alone." I know that Troye wasn't pleased with my explanation but I couldn't tell him more.

"So what did you guys do? Where do you went and what happened?" Maybe I can find out if Troye noticed Connor being a bit flirtatious.

"I took him to an abandoned theme park."

"Nooo way!" To everyone else it may seem not that special but I know that Troye always wanted to go to a specific abandoned theme park here in LA. Now he went there with Connor. I also know how much Connor loves places like that. I would almost think it was a date, bad enough that it ended in Connor acting like this.

"Uh yeah it was really fun and we took a lot of pictures and stuff. We talked a lot and watched the sunset."

"What happened right before Connor started acting weird?" I want to see if Troye says something else.

"We were just watching the stars and he sat up so I did the same and we looked at each other. Then he laid down again what seemed a bit weird and that's when he started acting weird."

"That's it, just watching each other?" Is it possible that Troye just didn't noticed it.

"..Uh.... yeah..I think" okay that answer makes it obvious that it wasn't just looking at each other.

"Troye you can tell me."

"Well I maybe thought that he looked down at my lips but I think I imagined that." So he did notice it.