Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~3~ Trying too hard

Troye's pov

I woke up relatively early and I couldn't get back to sleep so I decided to get up. Tyler was still fast asleep and I didn't want to wake him up so I got out of the room as quiet as possible and went to the kitchen to grab something to drink. I just got a glass of water and walked into the living room, I didn't expect someone to sit there though. Tyler was sleeping and didn't have brown hair so I was sure that it was Connor. He apparently heard me walk into the room because he was now turned so that he faced me. He actually looked really cute with his hair flat. You don't get to see that so much.

"Why are you awake it's only 6 am?" He asked me.

"I can ask you the same thing." He giggled a bit at my response.

"True"

I sat down next to Connor. That would've been a lot more comfortable for him than turning his whole body to be able to face me.

"So what's the reason that you're up so early?" He immediately let out a sigh at my question.

"You know just my mind that was going crazy again and thinking about everything." He had told me this several times. I always told him that he needed to relax and focus on the good things. It never really worked though. I don't know about what he always thinks but it must be some deep stuff if it's something that can keep him up all night and make him stress this much. I never asked him what it was though, I know he likes to keep things for himself, he doesn't want to bother someone with it. I would gladly listen to it and help him but if he doesn't want that then I can't pressure him to tell me.

"Connor you really need to relax and forget about the thing that stresses you out so much."

"I try Troye, I try so hard."

"Maybe you try too hard. Just let it be and don't focus on it. Just do what makes you happy."

"But what if that thing makes me happy?" I was really confused with his answer. What does he mean? The thing that stresses him out so much is also a thing that makes him happy?

"Then you need to accept it that it makes you happy." I really don't know what else I could say. I don't know what that thing is so I can't really say something else than this. I looked at Connor and I really couldn't say what was going on in his head right now. It must be something really big for him because there were tears building up in his eyes now. He was not going to cry, was he? I can't look at him like this. If he's going to cry then I'm sure that I will cry too. I took him in a tight hug, hoping that it would comfort him. It didn't seem to work, he really started to cry now.

"It isn't that easy Troye" He whispered and it just broke my heart to hear him so upset.

"Everything will be alright." I tried everything to comfort him, saying comforting things, rubbing his back, hugging him so close to me. Nothing really seemed to work. Sometimes I really want him to just tell me what's wrong. It would be so much easier to comfort him. Maybe I could even help him. He bottles everything up and that's never good for a person.

"Thank you Troye, I really appreciate everything you do for me"

"Connor I really don't mind it, I just want to see you happy."

After a few hugs and comforting words Connor stopped crying and we were just talking again. I'm just glad that he stopped crying and that he doesn't look so sad anymore.

Suddenly Tyler walked in the room. There was already more then 2 hours gone by since I woke up. I didn't even realise that I was just too busy with Connor.

"So is everyone ready to go shopping?!" Yes that's the Tyler we know. Always that loud and happy personality. Connor surprised me with replying on a happy tone too actually.