Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~17~ The truth

Connor's pov

What have I done? Why did I tell him I love him. He clearly doesn't love me and this is going to destroy our friendship. There's already been a few minutes since I confessed my love to him and he's just standing there, staring at me. I want to get away from his vision, I want to hide. I can't take his eyes on me much longer. I want to look at him, get lost in those sparkling blue eyes but I can't, I can't look him in the eyes no matter how hard I try. I just want to disappear. I look up again afraid to see what's going on with him. I can't read him, his eyes are just wide open and his mouth forms a straight line.

"Do you....do you love me?" No what I said was a fucking joke of course I love you. That's what I thought, I didn't say that out loud though.

"Troye... please don't make this any more painful than it already is." He definitely heard me when I confessed my love so why did he feel the need to ask it again.

"So you do love me?" I can't see what his emotions are and it's killing me. I want to know what he thinks, I want to know if we still can be friends.

"Yes" It came out more shaky than I wanted too. " but we can still be friends, no?" It seemed like he was thinking about his response and every second he took for his answer was killing me.

"I don't think so." That was it, I was broken inside. If he just said he didn't love me, I would get over it but I can't live without him as a friend. I need him in my life more than anyone else. We always were so close that I could almost feel his breath on me...wait? His breath? My eyes widened in realization. He was standing only inches apart from me, our lips almost touching. What the fuck is he doing? Does he want to hurt me even more with teasing me.

A shiver went trough my body when he spoke up, his voice low, lower than I ever heard.

"We can't be friends but I never said we can't be more than just friends." Before I could fully understand what he was saying, his lips touched mine. So gentle and careful. I kissed back in a matter of seconds. Was this really happening? Is this a dream?

No it wasn't Troye was really kissing me. It was the most perfect kiss I had ever experienced. It was so lovingly and slow but at the same time passionate. His hands travelled to my back, his fingers stroking over my shirt. I let my hands find their way to his hair, waving my fingers trough it. It was one of those stereotype kisses the only exception was that it was with 2 boys and no girl but I don't care. If this is how I feel then I'm glad I'm gay because I've never felt so good in my entire life.

But of course our kiss was interrupted by the one and only Tyler Oakley. He came into the room without knocking or saying a word so we didn't notice him until he started to scream and shout things like oh my god. When we heard that, we abruptly broke off our kiss and both stood there with our faces flushed red watching our oh so beautiful feet.

"Are you guys...like together?"

I looked up to Troye and he just gave me a confirming smile. A wave of happiness and bubly feelings went trough me.

"Yes we are" I said proudly with the biggest smile ever.

"Oh my god I can't believe it!! I am so happy for you guys. I was already thinking Connor was giving up and oh my god now you guys are together. You two are so fucking cute!" I think I've never saw him so happy and enthusiastic. It made me smile even more if that was even possible.

"Uh yeah I shall go then, give you guys some privacy." A smirk plastered on his face. Oh god Tyler surely is one of a kind. With that he left the room and Troye and I were alone again. We just stood there for a moment before I finally spoke up.

"So....we are boyfriends now?" I still couldn't believe it. How was it possible that we both love each other but neither of us noticed it. Looking back on it we really did act couply all the time.

"Yes we are, Connor you don't know how happy you made me. I-" I interrupted him with smashing my lips on his. It wasn't a gentle kiss like before. It was definitely more heated. I traced my tongue over his bottom lip asking for entrance but he denied that little shit. I brought my hands to his waist then, pulling him closer to me. I slipped my hands under his shirt, making him gasp. I took the opportunity to slip my tongue in his mouth. He didn't seem to mind it even though he denied access earlier. His tongue immediately finding mine. Troye pushed me against the wall making my breath hitch. His body was pressed against mine, his hands in my hair. It was the best feeling ever. When we backed out of the kiss we kept our heads touching for a second longer. Just enjoying the silence and each others presence.

"Connor?"

"Yes Troye."

"I love you." A huge smile formed on my face and I think it will never go away as long as I have Troye by my side.

"I love you too Troyeboye." I gave him a little peck on his lips and pulled him with me on my bed. He snuggled into my chest almost immediately. We just layed there in each others arms and for the first time I could say it is normal, it's normal to cuddle your boyfriend. Boyfriend, I love that word. I finally felt happy with my feelings, it felt wonderful to have this boy in my arms, to feel his chest going up and down every time he breaths, his body hugging mine perfectly. I never want to let this boy go.

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A/N

Hey guys! First of all thank you so much for 5k reads that's insane!
I know this chapter is shorter than usual but I didn't want to write further because I thought this was a cute ending for this chapter so deal with it. Also I think I've reread this chapter like 5 times if not even more because I wanted it to be perfect. I don't think it's perfect though but it's okay I guess. I wonder if someone actually reads my authors notes haha :) okay that was everything I had to say BYE xxx
Marlies