Wonderland (Sequal to Keeping It Up For The Cameras)

Chapter 15

I stared at James my mouth opened slightly in shock because 48 hours ago he had a girlfriend, I know he did. Maybe the 'problems' Brad had mentioned were a lot worse then I'd thought they were and that the 'fights' he'd spoken about were more serious. A scary thought came into my mind that maybe he hadn't come here for the reasons he first said, maybe he'd come here because he was annoyed with his, now ex, girlfriend and I dreaded that maybe that thought was even a little bit true. I never wanted to be that girl that a boy would run to as a rebound and that's sort of what it felt like other then the fact he hadn't tried to do anything with me, I mean he didn't even want to sit down on my sofa next to me. He couldn't be here for that, I knew that wasn't the kind of person who would do that, even if I hadn't spoken to him in so long I knew him still. As stupid as it sounds because I'd been the one telling him he didn't know me anymore and shouldn't care about me but I was very much still hung up on and after nearly 6 months I shouldn't be and I had to figure out why that even was.

"Are you okay?" I asked trying to read his expression from what he'd said.

"What?" James asked looking up at me slightly confused.

"I mean she broke up with you or something and you clearly liked her or else you wouldn't have been with her," I explained to him and he still seemed a bit confused.

"She didn't break up with me Holly," he laughed a tiny bit shaking his head slightly. "I broke up with her." he shrugged simple making eye contact with me worrying me a tiny bit because as self-centered as it sounded, maybe he did it because of me and I didn't want him to do that. If he was happy and threw it away for me I'd just feel awful because I wasn't worth it.

"Oh," was all I said in reply breaking the eye contact to play with the lace of my one untied shoe. "Why?" I asked still confused because he was obviously with her for a reason in the first place and you don't just wake up one day and not want to be with someone. From what Brad had told me as well he was pretty much blind to who she really was as  person which sadly the rest of us could see clearly.

"She was a bitch," he said bluntly and I looked back up at him again making eye contact straight away causing me to burst out laughing just because of the pure bluntness that came out of his mouth. "It's not funny," he let out a small laugh. "It's true."

"You still can't say that," I let out a sigh smiling a tiny bit still.

"Why do you think I broke up with her?" he asked as if I was being stupid.

"Well I just assumed you didn't know that she was a horrible horrible person," I shrugged simply because that was defiantly the impression I was given.

"How do you know that?" he asked me squinting slightly. "By any chance was it something to do with my lovely band mates?" he asked and I shook my head slowly because I didn't want to throw them in the deep-end. "How then?" he frowned a tiny bit. "You never even met her."

"Erm I had a bit of a run in with her," I bit my lip slightly looking down at my lap.

"When?" he sounded a tiny bit concerned as if she'd hurt me and it had been a physical fight or something.

"You know a few weeks ago when I ran into you coming out of your building?" I sighed before looking back up at him and making eye contact once more. "She took it upon herself to have a chat with me about you, it wasn't nice shall I say." James stared back at me looking shocked at the same time as not being too surprised, probably knowing Lily was capable of that level of cruelness.

"I can't say that I'm surprised," he let out a small laugh.

"If it helps Brad and Connor will be over the moon about you breaking up?" I cracked a small smile.