Wonderland (Sequal to Keeping It Up For The Cameras)

Chapter 31

3 Missed Calls From James

I stared at my phone seeing the 5 words but not exactly sure what to do with them. 3 was an important number because one missed call meant they tried to ring you but you weren't there, two means they're checking again but it's not urgent, three means the caller really needs you. Maybe I was finally going to get an apology from him but 3 calls meant drama and it had been three hours since the last one. I took in one deep breath before redialing the number, clearing my throat slightly because I had morning voice.

"Oh thank God," James said straight away. "I'm assuming by you returning my calls you don't think I'm a complete arshole and don't want to break up with me." I smiled faintly at the comment staring down at my lap as I did. "Holly please say something," he pleaded his voice filled with desperation.

"You were only a bit of jealous douche," I sighed finally talking. "Not really an arshole."

"Thank you," he let out nervous laugh making me smile. "I am genuinely sorry about last night though, I shouldn't have been jealous or anything of course I trust you but..." he paused for moment clearly trying to think of how to phrase the next part of the sentence, sensing he had to be sensitive with this. "When I'm like 5 hours away and in the past 4 weeks have only seen you for one night I feel jealous, I can't help it, it just feels like you might forget me and forget why you like me in the first place."

"I get it James," I sighed my smile slipping away. "I honestly understand but you need to know if I didn't want to be in this relationship I wouldn't, just because I'm not comfortable with people knowing quite yet doesn't mean anything, it just means I'm 21 and worried about being followed by men with cameras and our relationship becoming a show an not real." I shrugged before fidgeting slightly moving my legs so they were crossed on top of my bed.

"I know," he said softly. "It's fine Hol, I just want to be England," I let out a small laugh at that comment, smiling again at my lap.

"I would like that too," I smiled softly. "I don't want to be in another relationship where I'm not trusted James and I know it'll be fine once you get back to London but I want you to understand there is absolutely nothing going on between me and Michael, he knows I have a boyfriend and he's just my friend like the most platonic of all friends, you'd like him actually." I started to trace small circles on my bare leg. "Like last night when it was it raining he let me under his coat so I wouldn't soaked but then threatened to push me into a puddle, a lot like Brad actually." I laughed slightly still staring at my legs.

"Yeah I knew about the coat thing," he replied sounding slightly stiff. "Not about the puddle, that's funny but I knew he let you under his jacket."

"How?" I asked. "Did you hire someone to follow me or something?" I let out a nervous laugh at that.

"Daily mail," he replied simply. "There were photos." he carried on making me let out a small sigh of frustration.

"God," I groaned lifting my head slightly. "James just to confirm, him and his band drove me home and I got out alone and nothing at all..."

"I know," he laughed slightly. "I saw your face in the photo, he's just your friend, nothing more. That'd why I called you to say sorry because it was obvious that you weren't anything more and I felt like a total idiot for even considering anything other then that."

"Thank you," I closed my eyes. "Thank you James."

"Holly I..." he began to say but cut himself off. "Holly I can't wait to see you again, I miss you," he restarted his sentence but had a slightly stiffened tone.

"I miss you too," I smiled faintly. "I need to go tweet once again that me and Michael are friends," I sighed. "I'll call you later."

"We'll talk later," he laughed a tiny bit before hanging up the phone and let out a sigh before opening twitter deciding it was time to compose another tweet in a skillful way. It was just a bit awkward and sad to have to keep on doing this, well keep on was a bit of an exaggeration but it was still frustrating. I had two chooses of what to tweet, one was to go down the witty and sarcastic route and the other was to be serious and simply say me and Michael weren't in a relationship. I decided the first would be better.

Holly Parker (hollyparker)

Fun fact I also once left a party with Taylor Swift, does that mean we're now dating as well?

Michael Clifford (Michael5SOS)

@hollyparker I thought what we had was special, do you just always leave parties with people?!

Holly Parker (hollyparker)

@Michael5SOS yes. it's a hobby.