The last night of the multiply tour was something I really didn't want to happen. The past few months were perfect for me and as soon as it ends I know I'll crash back to reality of rainy, boring England. Even though I'd been in England again for a while it's not the same being on tour and being trapped in my apartment. Actually London, which was meant to be my home, didn't feel very homey right now, actually I knew exactly how much I'd hate not having the distraction of performing every night.
But that night I feared came and past leaving me on a train to go back to London. The thing was when i thought of London I thought of the night I wanted to forget. To me London was full to the brim with regrets and mistakes. If I could write a list of every wrong choice I'd made in the past 6 months I'd have a novel on my hands. Honestly I always believed that if something was meant to happen then it would and fate should run it's course but I think I'd messed up what was staring at me right in the face. If fate was real then I'd defiantly prevented it by not listening to my heart going with the stupid logical mind that I was stuck with telling me that I shouldn't let myself be in love because love always has a way of hurting me.
I was hopelessly in love and the reason it was hopeless was because the person I really liked and wanted to be with threw my feelings in my face, technically he didn't reject me but he didn't stop me from leaving crying. He didn't try to call me or text me actually, I'd thought at least James would have the decency to send a quick text like 'hey real sorry about the other night when you left crying hope you're okay see you around'. But I didn't even get that. I thought maybe I meant a tiny bit to him so at least he'd be mildly upset that he made me cry and run from him.
Maybe it's just 'classic Holly' going for the wrong guy who will break my heart then when I'm finally okay again falling for the perfect person at the wrong time and under the wrong circumstances, again living my heart broken. Zoe was again forced to become my councilor letting me cry to her as much as I could with her telling me that I hadn't screwed up which of course I didn't believe but now she was gone and I was in a taxi driving through London to get home.
There was just something weird going on in my mind, a state of confusion really so being here in the same city as James was just going to screw me up even more.
I let out a sigh as the taxi came to halt outside my apartment seeing the rain which was hammering against the window of the taxi.
"Do you need any help?" my thoughts were interrupted by my taxi driver looking at me in the mirror.
"No I'll be fine," I forced smile at him taking some money out of my purse and slipping it through the little tray for him before jumping out of the taxi taking my suitcase with me hauling it up the stairs of my apartment not even caring that I was getting soaked.
By the time I got inside my building I was wet and shivering so I hurried to my apartment as soon as I could to change and shower. My apartment seemed cold when I returned, every single thing in my living room was creepily placed so neatly it impersonal. Still I ignored it and ran straight to my shower not bothering to unpack because I just felt disgusting. Once I'd finished my warm comforting shower I saw my phone light up brightly making me sigh before wrapping a towel around me looking at my phone which was lit up with notifications from twitter, imessage and missed calls which made me realise I'd been in the shower for a lot longer then I thought.
"Hey what's up George," I sighed returning my manager's many calls.
"Have you heard then?" he asked excitement running through his voice.
"Heard what?" I sighed running my hand through my wet hair removing some tangles.
"Are you joking?" he laugh slightly at me.
"No what's going on?" I asked fidgeting slightly because I still hadn't turned my heating on.
"Oh, well this is a shock," he sounded seriously surprised as I went to my boiler to advance the heating. "Wonderland is number in the UK charts and from the look of sales in the US and because of all the support from Ed and Taylor and other people it's gunna be in the Billboard Hot 100." he explained making me stand still in pure shock not sure of what to say in response. "Holly are you there still?" he asked after a long pause.
"I'm number one in the UK?" I gulped processing it.
"Yes," he laughed slightly.
"Oh My God," I squealed jumping slightly. "No way, this is not real." I was suddenly filled with excitement. It's not that I didn't know that song would do well, I was prepared that it would because of seeing it top of the iTunes chart but wasn't expecting number 1 ever let alone for a song I wanted to throw out.
"It's real," George sighed clearly grinning.
"I'm so...I can't believe it," I gasped smiling at my bare feet. "This is amazing." I grinned.
"I know," he replied simply. "You might want to get tweeting about it." he told me making me laugh.
"Yes I will," I bit my lip holding back my grin. "Thank you this is..."
"All down to you," George cut me off making me smile even brighter.
"Thank you," I let out a sigh before hanging up the phone letting out another squeal jumping slightly before composing myself still clutching onto my phone. I grinned opening twitter before tapping away at my phone.
Holly Parker (hollyparker)
THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH I love you all so much thank you all for getting Wonderland to number 1 never did I think this would happen. THANK YOU x
I was still grinning as I replied to excited texts from everyone from Zoe to Ed to my friends from Norfolk, even Connor actually messaged me which was nice, I assumed he was just oblivious to what happened between me and James or knew everything and was being sweet. I sighed going back to twitter to look at my notifications seeing that celebrities I didn't know knew who I was had tweeted me or retweeted my tweet. Again James decided to show up on my feed again, only retweeting the hyper thing I'd just sent but still it was a little weird. I didn't like it actually. I didn't think he had the right to retweet me...I know it sounds weird but I really didn't want to see his account because it reminded me of what a complete idiot I was. Still why had he retweeted me? I didn't get it.
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Sorry for the slight lack of updates but OH MY GOD I GOT MY MOCK RESULTS FOR ENGLISH TODAY AND I GOT AN A*, guess I'm okay at this whole English and writing stuff
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Wonderland (Sequal to Keeping It Up For The Cameras)
Fanfic"I tried to get over you and I tried to forget it but honestly I can't" 3 Months away from London and nothing or at least very little seems to have changed within Holly's mind but physically and emotionally it's another story. When the fake relation...
