My True Identity

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

I was walking down the road to Claire’s since I had forgotten to buy my accessories. I was skipping school again for the new me. The new me was more important, I had to fully change my appearance before going back to school. Then I had to start taekwondo to help with self defense and also drama to help control my emotions and learn to be something your not. Claire’s had really cute accessories but they weren’t all overly girly. As soon as I entered the shop a beautiful necklace caught my eye. It had a heart in the middle and two dragons on the side, one black and one white. I checked the price tag and found it was £4.20 so I instantly bought it; I also bought some studded chokers that weren’t too gothic but looked kinda cute. Later on I bought some earrings and bracelets from accessorize.

By the time I’d gotten back to the house, it was only 4:12. I had no clue where mum was but didn’t care. She was probably handling the things with the lawyer or at work. I went upstairs and sorted my accessories before coming back down to watch some TV. I watched some random episodes and was about to drift off to sleep when I heard knock on the door. I groaned and got ready to have a go at mum…….only it wasn’t her. It was…..Aaron Skiezer. He had bags under his eyes and his once dark brown hair was disheveled, however not in a hot way. Without another word he pushed past me and entered my house without my permission.

“WH-what? Who? How?” I asked wondering how the hell he found my address.

“I asked Abigail” he replied reading my mind.

“Get out of my damn house!” I screamed but he only gave me a long that said ‘Try me’

“Urgh, why are YOU here?! What do you want from ME?” I asked him. I hated his cocky exterior, it really pissed me off. Just then he got up from the couch and placed his hands on my shoulders looking me in the eye. “I was really worried. Where were you?” he asked in soft tone, his eyes holding all the care in the world. I felt my heart break and wished I could just wrap him in a massive hug and never let go. However I pushed all my emotions aside. As much as I wanted to bawl my eyes out to him and tell him everything, I couldn’t, I wouldn’t. I had made a promise to myself to never feel anything for anyone and Aaron was no exception. I knew that if I let him in, he would hurt me really badly. He looked just like a player no matter how many times he denied it so I knew he wouldn’t want me. Life was too short to feel emotions towards others; I had better things to concentrate on. “Selena?” Aaron asked breaking my train of thoughts. I looked him in the eye, knowing my next words would hurt him and I’d regret it.

“Just get out” I sighed suddenly feeling drained and weak.

“But...” he protested.

“Just get the hell out of my house before I call the friggin police!” I shouted. He looked extremely hurt, like I’d burned his soul so I turned away. A few minutes later I heard the sound of a door opening and closing.

After that I ran up the stairs and straight into my room. I ran to the bathroom and swung open the door of the mini cupboard and grabbed the blade. I cut myself continuously until I fell in a pool of my own blood.

I woke up in an uncomfortable bed with white surroundings; I looked around to find I was in a hospital. And then it all came rushing back, I must’ve fainted from the extreme loss of blood. Just then a nurse came in and smiled at me. “Where’s mum?” I asked her.

“I’ll call her right now, she’s just waiting outside” she explained. I nodded as she went to call mum. I looked down at my wrists and saw they were covered in bandages. “Shit, shit, shitty shit!” I swore under my breath. I prayed to God that she didn’t find out about my cutting. Oh lord, I know I’ve been a bad bad very bad girl but please…please don’t let me mum find out about my cutting. I promise to ask something from you again but just PLEASE grant me my last wish! I prayed in my mind just as mum entered the room.

Mum seemed really worried and asked me what happened, she suspected that I’d cut but I lied to her and she flipping believed it! Gullible much? I thought. I told her that whilst I was out, I’d fell into a bush of thorns and got scratches on my wrist. So I’d run home and was looking for a bandage as I was bleeding a lot but accidentally knocked over a blade and a few other items and before I could pick it up, I fainted. I was so glad that she believed me and promised to be more careful and secretive in making sure mum didn’t find out my secret.

I got discharged later on that day so I went home with mum. The car ride was really awkward and quiet and I’d never been gladder to get home. I ran straight up to my room and locked the door before mum could try to make conversation. Later that night I waited until mum was asleep before sneaking out. I grabbed a hoodie seeing it was quite windy and walked out into the dark night. I walked to the forest, it had been a long time since I’d come here and I had to admit, I was slightly ecstatic. I walked until I spotted a big rock and sat down, looking up at the night sky. Suddenly a beautiful blond werewolf appeared before me. “Hello Ethan” I said. I could somehow see the wolf smile and I heard a voice in my head ‘Hello Selena’. Just then I witnessed the most amazing moment, I saw Ethan turn back into a human! It was magical and unreal.

After Ethan turned he came and saw next to me on the rock. Before I could say something he said something I didn’t expect him to. “I heard” I knew what he was talking about but asked anyways. “About what?” I asked him. I was surprised to see he didn’t look at me with pity, I hated that expression! “About your father” he replied in a soft tone. I didn’t want to talk about it because I wasn’t ready so I abruptly changed the subject. “Hey, can you teach me some defense skills, like I dunno….karate or something?” I asked. I really wanted to learn how to fight. It was a step towards the new me, the new me which wasn’t weak and scared like the old me. The new me who knew how to defend herself.

We spent an entire two hours fighting and I was really happy that I’d learnt the basic skills. It would help in my self defense class. I hugged Ethan tightly. “Thank you SO much Ethan!” I said beaming brighter than a laser light. He laughed and ruffled my hair so I jumped on him in turn causing him to stumble and both of us landed on the floor. The overgrown grass tickled my neck causing me to giggle uncontrollably. Ethan gave me a look which said ‘Are-you-on-crack?’ which only increased my giggling.

After spending some time with Ethan he walked me back to my house. I promised to see him every week for self defense lessons. Standing there, I saw an emotion whirl in his eyes that I had never seen before. I’d never seen someone look at me like that before so I had no clue what the emotion was. Just then I saw Ethan leaning in towards me and without realizing, I leaned in to. But before anything could happen I heard a loud howl and we pulled apart like repelling magnets. I cleared my throat and waved goodbye awkwardly. I locked the back door and went upstairs into my room.

I changed into my pajamas and lay in bed with the lights off. I tried to sleep as I had to go back to school tomorrow sadly but my mind kept replaying the scene with Ethan. Did we…………almost……kiss? Does………that mean he ………..likes me? If…..we didn’t hear the howl…would we have kissed? I thought. I had so many questions that needed answers but didn’t know if they’d get answers. I decided that I’d think about it later, but I wondered if Ethan was as nonchalant. I was scared that our relationship would turn awkward and I mentally slapped myself for being so foolish. However I pushed it all away as I fell into a deep sleep. -----------

--------I was running, running without a clue as to where I was going. Just then I fell and felt my knee letting out blood. It hurt like hell and I screamed but no one heard. “Welcome to hell”

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