Only for Myself

I Wish

I wish that
I could be unaffected
by you.
I wish that
seeing your name
on my screen
didn't still set my heart
somewhat
ablaze.
All I
ever wanted
was for you to say
I want you
but the sad truth is that
your insecurities
are stopping you from
the brightest,
the warmest,
and the most brilliant
love
you could ever have
in your whole life.
But it's okay,
I know what I
deserve.