Love Me

One Last Chance

John's POV

I cough a cab, canceled my tour, and headed to the hospital. I had flowers, but she wouldn't want them.

Inside my suitcase I had the papers all ready. I figured I'd make things easier and I'd get that done before she asked.

I can't believe I did what I did. I really loved her, but obvious not enough. She deserves better. The kids deserve better.

I can't believe that after all this it's going to be over. She might not even want to see me. To think that the airport may be that last time I ever got to see her face. She her smile at me. Her eyes glow with love and affection.

Next time she sees me her eyes are going to be filled with pain and hate. Her smile will belong to another man in no time. Her lips won't crave my touch soon. I'll never get to lay down next to her again. After all this we would be nothing to each other.

The kids will eventually hear about what I did. They will lose all respect for me like Katy did.

My family will hate me.

The driver pulled up to the hospital, paparazzi filled.

"Mrs. Mayer's room please" I said to the receptionist.

"We don't have a Mrs. Mayer here, but I have a feeling your looking for Ms.Hudson?"

She already changed it. Our names were no longer one. She probably changed it due to the embarrassment I brought with it.

"Yes her please."

"Just follow that man, and woman they are heading the same way." she said pointing to a man walking down the hall.

David and Angela.

They would kill me if they saw me.

I know what I did, and it was wrong. But they weren't going to let me go easy.

I just followed behind. Keeping a distance. Not saying a word.

"He's a real asshole." Angela said.

"I never liked him. I just was accepting because he made her happy. But if I know what I know now, I would have kicked his ass awhile ago." David said.

It hurt knowing that they hated me.

The walked into the elevator, and I followed in, head down, hat and sunglasses on.

"Those kids are heartbroken. I can't take to see it any longer, plus Katy. On the bright side she can go home today, even if she has all those medicines." Angela said.

I picked my head up, and they both were in shock.

"You fucking.." David started screaming at me.

"DAVID SHUT UP. Listen John, you don't go and see her. You can say hi to the kids, but your not seeing Katy. If you have anything you need to say write down." Angela said.

David mumbled "You better start writing a novel." But Angela nudged him.

"If you have anything else I'll take that too, but don't be long." she continued on.

"I think it would be best if I could speak to her in person. She still is my wife legally, we need to decide what's going to happen. I have a idea and if it is what I think we need to work that out in person, not over a piece of paper."

Divorce is all that went through my mind.

"Fine but 5 minutes and I'm sending the kids in with you just so you have some watching you and you can control yourself. I'm giving you some privacy."

"Thank you."

The elevator opened, and I saw Katy's parents. The gave me a look of disappointment, that I tried to ignore. I said hello, took Ava from Keith and sat next to the twins.

"Daddy!!" they both yelled

"hey kiddos." I said with disappointment knowing that I may never get to hug them the way I do now, see them smile the same way.

"Mommy missed you. Shes cried every night time since you went. Now she's here and she cried again. She okay daddy?" Juliet asked.

"don't worry hunny."

"Daddy I watch a movie one time, and the mommy and daddy left each other and got married to new people. Is you and mommy going to do that?" Justin asked now, which really hit me.

"I hope not silly." I said trying to ignore the reality.

"John i talked to her, I think she's ready. You have 5 minutes." Angela said walking out of the room Katy was in.

***

I stepped in. The white walls filled with Katys sorrow and pain.

"hi. um. Im going to get straight to the point. I drank. I was celebrating the tour. I had to many. and the girl reminded me of you, now that I'm sober and I realized I'm a fucking idiot. If you want a divorce I understand. But I'm not going to ever stop loving you Katy. I'm asking for 1 night out, I'll take you to dinner. Just like the begging and after if you don't feel it, I'll get the papers."

I was never going to admit to having papers already, because I had hope.

"Tonight. 6:30 I'll be waiting."

Thats all she said before Angela came back and told Katy it was time to get going.