(basically a long rant, because I need a rant)
I didn't love you enough to call it love.
I didn't love you like I loved the birds, like I loved the Sun, like I loved night and day.
I couldn't have loved you because I was lonely
I couldn't have loved you because I was blinded by your affection, blinded by your concern and fueled by your emotion.
I wouldn't have loved you because I couldn't.I couldn't see you for who you are, I failed to discover all the parts of you
I rejected your interests, your life, and the parts of you that needed to be loved, I desperately tried to fix too soon.The most frightening thing of all is that I can't tell if I actually felt anything towards you
I fear I only liked you because you have me attention, and because I needed that attention. I'm terrified to think that I only saw the person I chose to see,
It's driving me crazy, the thought of me using you, then the thought of me loving you.I would have loved you because, you deserve to be loved.
You aren't a perfect soul, you don't own a sound mind or a pure heart
But you are enough. More than enough.I would have loved you because you are beautiful (yes, beautiful)
I never got to see the whole of you, but I know you are.
I would have loved you because you are kind. You recognize the kindness in people, and you admire it.
I would have loved you because you are funny. Sometimes I wonder how you come up with the most ridiculous things, and are confident enough to tell me them.
I would have loved you because your hugs are warm. Even on the coldest days, I eagerly await for your arrival, in the freezing weather, because I know you are warm.I love you because you are confident
I love you because you aren't confidentI love you because we weren't together
I love you because I wish we wereI love you because your smile spreads out so unevenly when you see me
I love you because you see me
I love you because you are sillyI love you because I know I have to let you go.
I love you more than you will ever know
I love you, and I don't.(That was long...)
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The Spiral
PoetryA deep dive into thoughts about the universe, life, emotions and more, down an endless poetic(and sometimes not poetic) spiral. We follow various characters.