Love Sucks - The Vampire Diaries - Damon Salvatore

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I wondered into Damons room the next morning to talk things through. He was still asleep when I entered, lying in bed looking so peaceful. I thought about what he was like as a human; what Stefan had told me he was like anyway. He sounded like such a nice gentleman. I know a lot has happened to him, but why is he so different from his human self?

I walked over and lay next to him, looking at his beautiful face as he slowly stirred. Damons eyes fluttered open and he smiled at me, "Morning."

"Morning" I smiled back. He leaned in close and gently kissed me. I wasn't sure how it made me feel, and that worried me. I felt happy and safe, but also scared of what could happen. What Damon was capable of scared me so much. The similarities he shared with my father, it just wasn't right. "Damon, I think we need to talk."

He sat up in bed, the cover slipping down and showing his bare chest. I watched it slip, wondering why I wanted to have this talk....

"What sort of talk?" He asked and I was brought back to reality.

I sat up myself, thinking for a second before getting to my feet and walking a little distance away from the bed. "I think we should have a break." I said, not looking in his direction.

I heard him shuffle out the bed and take a few paces before stopping. I turned to look at him and he was now stood by the desk. "No" Damon shook his head and leaned against the desk behind him.

"It wasn't a question." I pulled out, some how. "I'm feeling very overwhelemed right now and I'm unsure where to go from here."

"Overwhelemed? You had another spirit possessing you for weeks, months! and NOW you feel overwhelemed?" his voice getting louder as he spoke and walking over to me.

"Yes, I know. But I can acutally feel things now, I hadn't realised I couldn't before. Somehow she had taken over all my emotions, all my feelings, thoughts and maybe even what I said. Now I'm actually in control of my whole body again, I'm feeling things I don't want to." I explained as Damon reached me, standing a few steps in front of me.

"Then don't feel them!" Damon shouted, taking my hands and pulling me close.

"I'm not a vampire!" I shouted at him out of nowhere, out of frustration. Damon took a step back; he was shocked at my outburst but then again, so was I. I'm not sure how I managed to shout that out, my mouth working faster than my brain obvisouly. "I can't just flick a switch and not feel things!"

"I don't know why you're thinking this now." he sighed and paced the room a few times before stopping and turning back to me, "Is this because of Stefan?"

"What? No!" I shouted at him. OK, it kinda was. But not the way he thought. Stefan didn't do horrible things like Damon did. I needed someone good in my life, not someone who didn't think twice about killing someone. "Seeing you kill that vampire, and how you tortured - "

"That's what this is about? That first guy, he was going to kill you! So yeah, I killed him first. I was protecting you! The other one in the basement? We got the information we needed! From my touture!" he shouted, obviously frustrated.

"Why are you like this Damon!?" I questioned.

"Because that's who I am! I kill! I'm a vampire! If you don't like it, why did you start dating me in the first place!?"

"Because I'm broken!" I screamed. Damon stood still and just starred at me. "I'm broken Damon." I said calmer, sitting down on the edge of the bed. "I was bullied at school and came home to a father that beat me. A girls first love is her father, so of course I would end up with someone who's violent!" I got back up and paced the room myself. Damon just stayed where he was, watching me. "Do I want to be with someone like that? No. I want to be loved at all times! I want to feel like I'm being cared for. I don't want to be scared what my boyfriend is going to do!" I went back to screaming. My emotions were all over the place and I hated it. I hated feeling so much and not knowing what to do with it all. Imagine if I was a vampire at this stage? This is all too much for me now, being a vampire would highten it so much that I don't think I'd be able to cope.

"Liv, please don't -" Damon finally said but I was feeling brave again

"No. I think it's what's needed. I need time to figure these things out and if I can be with someone like you." I stormed passed him and slammed his bedroom door close. I took in a deep breath and walked to my room.

"Olivia, please can't we just figure this out?" Damons voice came from behind me. I turned to see him stood at his door. His face fell when I turned and looked at him, tears had started to form in my eyes and gently falling. I have been crying way too much these passed few days.

"That's what I'm doing." I turned back round and continued to my room.

I opened the door and closed it again without looking up. I leaned my head against the wood and breathed out slightly, calming my self down. I turned, jumping a little when I saw Stefan stood in the middle of my room, "Hi."

"Hey." Stefan smiled weakly as I took a couple of steps in.