Love Sucks - The Vampire Diaries - Damon Salvatore

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The next day I bounced downstairs, fresh from a good nights sleep. Everything from yesterday afternoon from my mind, except mine and Damon's full on make out session.... on a fridge full of human blood.... let's skip over that part. The more I thought about it, and every other kiss we had, made me feel so sure about him. I know he did feed on me that once... kinda my fault though. I should've just left it.

No! It was his fault, he shouldn't have done that!

But if I had just left it when he told me to...

No! That does not give him the right to do anything to you! You can push a man as much as you want but that does not give them a right for any wrong actions against you!

OK!! Like I've got a bloody angel and devil on my shoulder... maybe I'll call them Damon and Stefan... I'll let you decide which ones which....

As I reached the bottom of the stairs, I could hear Damon and Stefan shouting from the library. I walked over, seeing the door slightly ajar I waited outside as silently as I could.

"What do you mean!?" Damon shouted as I leaned on the wall and took soft breaths, hoping they couldn't hear me.

"There's just....something about her." Stefan replied, closer to the door than Damon

"Yeah, that I like her! You can never let me have something for a change! It's always what you want. Never what I want!" Damon sounded like me... it's always Elena. What she wants goes, doesn't matter about anything or anyone else. "Who says Olivia wants you anyway? Have you asked her?"

It's about me?

"Actually I have!" Stefan shouted back.

When?

"When!?"

"One of her first nights here. I...." he paused before carrying on, "I got into..."

"You got into her head?" Damon interrupted, "so she was dreaming and you decided to plop yourself in there? Mess with her head!!"

What the actual hell!?

"Well she said she wanted me -"

I jumped away from the wall and pushed the doors open and stood there, fuming at Stefan, "you did what!?"

Both boys stood there in silence. "How long have you -" Stefan started but I didn't have time for his crap.

"You guys are suppose to have the magic hearing! Why don't you tell me!? But then again if you had maybe Stefan wouldn't have admitted to... what? Getting into my head!?" Like what!?

"Vampires can distort dreams. Sort of. It's in your mind and they can make you see what they want." Damon explained

"And you thought you'd get into mine to see if I liked you?" I asked Stefan, crossing my arms and staring right at him.

Stefan didn't say anything. Every so often he opened his mouth as if he was going to but then changed his mind.

"And when I said I did, you kissed me. And then what? What if I hadn't woken up? Hey!? Would you have had sex with me!?"

"I.... I don't - "

"You don't know!?! Well I'm glad that's cleared that up! Imagine if you had, would I still be a virgin? Would that count as my first time? If it had would you have told me or would I go about my life thinking that never happened as it was just a dream and think I lost it with someone else but really I lost it to you!?" My mind was racing with a thousand thoughts. None of which I had an answer to.

Damon and Stefan looked at each other as if they were unsure what the answer would be. Of course it wasn't real, I'd still be a virgin. But the thought....but would I?

"I.... I don't..."

"Yeah. You don't know!" I screamed before storming out and back upstairs, "and I was so fucking happy!!!"

I reached my room, slammed the door shut behind me and fell onto the bed face first, screaming into my pillow.