Love Sucks - The Vampire Diaries - Damon Salvatore

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I returned to my room, a bit overwhelmed by everything that was going on, and went to the bathroom. I finally looked at myself in the mirror, Matts blood was still over my face, some running down my chin and neck. Picking up the towel beside me, I gently wiped it away, cleaning myself up and looking down at the sink, not wanting to look at myself again.

This was not the plan. But, if I hadn't have had Stefans blood, I'd be dead right now. So there's that. I moved the towel and caught sight of the blood covering it; that's what took me over the edge. I suddenly burst into tears, falling to the floor and cuddling my knees.

"Hey, I was just - Liv?" Damons voice came from my room before he noticed me on the floor, "Hey! Hey, Liv?" he grabbed hold of my shoulders, shaking me gently so I looked to him. "What's up?"

"It's too much. It's all too much" I cried out, holding on to my head now, "I can feel everything!" I shouted through my tears.

Seeing the blood on the towel made me think about how Matt was, what I did and how he let me do it. Now he was alone, again. Vicki had died. His dad left and then his mum. Our uncle died, and now I was dead. Well, I was still here but I wasn't too. I was dead. A vampire; the one thing he hates most in this world. Which then made me remember who I was. I'm now a vampire with all the feelings and lusts of a vampire, which scared the hell out of me.

"It'll be fine." Damon wrapped his arms around me, kissing my forehead as I sobbed, "it gets easier. I promise."

"Does it? Because all I ever see is you two trying to resist your urges; you to kill people and failing. And Stefan trying to not feed on humans. And Caroline's just about holding it together too!" I screamed, getting up and walking back into the bedroom

"Didn't you want -" Damon started to question me.

"Yes I did!" I shouted from the other side of the room, wondering round trying to work out all the feelings swirling round my head. "But I didn't realise it was going to be this hard!" I wondered into the light shining through a gap of the window curtains. My hand caught the light first, it burnt instantly and started to bubble and pop, "AHHH!" I screamed at the pain, pulling my hand out the sunlight.

"Careful!" Damon shouted, racing over to move me away from the sunlight all together. He then closed the curtain more, just to make sure.

I looked down at my hand as it bubbled. It was red raw and I couldn't bend my fingers as the bubbling slowed. I turned my hand over, examining everything the sun had done to me. I slowly watched my hand turn from a bright, blood red, to a rosey red and then to my natural skin tone. I wiggled my fingers and examined my hand again; it was as if it never happened.

"Looks like you're a fully fledged vampire" Damon took my hand in his and linked his fingers with mine, "welcome to the family."

I smiled before looking up and catching something just over his shoulder, "Klaus" I whispered, looking behind Damon.

Damon turned to see Klaus stood at the doorway, "What a lovely surprise." Damon said sarcastically.

"Caroline called." He walked over to us and stood a few steps in front, "Are you OK, Olivia?"

"She's fine." Damon snapped out, looking him up and down.

"I believe I asked Olivia." Klaus' expression changed quickly as his eyes left mine and met Damon's. He looked angry, like he wanted Damon's blood.

"I'm fine Klaus, thank you." I smiled weakly.

Klaus don't believe me, "No, I'm sorry. I don't buy it."

"If she says she's fine, she's fine." Damon moved away from me and squared up to Klaus.

"Damon" Klaus smirked, "you know you'd lose this fight, so please don't waste our time."

I walked over and placed my hand on Damon's arm, "please, don't."

Damon looked down at my hand on his bicep before staring daggers at Klaus again, "I'll be downstairs." He turned and kissed me on the forehead before walking out the door and slamming it shut.

"So, the truth this time. How are you, love?" Klaus came close to me and took my hands in his.

I let out a few more tears before Klaus pulled me into him, letting go of my hands and wrapping his arms around me. I gently sobbed on his chest, "it'll be OK, love."

"How do you know?" I mumbled against him.

"Because there are vampires in this house who are respectable, who have come out the other side and are managing their emotions their way." Klaus pulled me away from me and smiled.

"I feel everything." I whispered to him, "how can I feel everything all at once?"

"It will get easier." Klaus rubbed my shoulders, "it takes time." I wanted to fall into my bed and stay there forever. As I leaned backwards to fall, Klaus grabbed me again and pulled me into him. "Nope. Not getting away from me that easy." We stayed like that for a while before he spoke again. "Why don't you come to New Orleans with me? Elijah and I can help you."

This time I moved away from him and frowned, "go from two brothers to two new brothers?"

"And the rest." He smiled. "Promise we won't fall for you. Though, Kol may be an issue." He added with a wink.

"Thank you" I smiled, "you all do sound amazing. But I don't want to leave them."

Klaus nodded, completely understanding. "Have you chosen the brother yet?"

This time, Klaus wasn't fast enough to grab me from falling backwards in to the bed. He gently laughed and sat next to me, "take that as a no."

"I love Damon." I put simply. I stopped and realised I had nothing to say about Stefan.

"And Stefan is..." Klaus tried to get me to say something else... but there was nothing else. It was as if that feeling had vanished.

"Amazing. An amazing friend." I sat up and looked over to Klaus. "Have I just worked out one of my feelings?"

"I believe you have." He smiled, putting his arm around my shoulder and giving me a quick squeeze, "well done."

I took a deep breath in, "so that's all I've got to do? One emotion at a time."

Klaus nodded and agreed with me, "One emotion at a time."