Love Sucks - The Vampire Diaries - Damon Salvatore

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We had made it home and sat in the library. Caroline and Tyler had joined us. I was sat on a couch, holding my head in my hands. Everything hurt. Way more than it did before.

The sun was too bright. I could hear everyone's heartbeat, everyone's blood pumping through their bodies. I could even hear the branches scraping the bricks outside.

"Oh my God, make it stop!" I sobbed, unsure how the others were able to handle all of these sounds. Not to mention the feelings swirling around my brain. And then the smells. I could smell each of them; they all smelled differently. I could pin point each of them by their smell.

"Liv, you need to feed. Otherwise you're gonna die." Tyler was sat next to me, he rested his hand on my knee.

"What if I kill someone!? I can't do that!" I shook my head, looking over to him. "Everyone has. So why would I be any different?"

"Because we're here to help you." Caroline smiled over to me, "all of us will help you. We'll all be there so you don't."

I looked between everyone. I had no one a few months ago, and now I had these amazing people who would help me with anything. I didn't feel like I deserved them; they we're all such great people and yet they chose to be friends with me.

"Who is going to volunteer to be bitten by a transitioning vampire?" I sighed.

"What about me?" I looked up to see Matt standing at the doorway.

"Matty." I started to cry when I saw him. He had lost everyone now. I couldn't believe how selfish I had been, thinking about myself when my favourite person in the world was now alone. "I'm sorry -"

"Don't. If you hadn't turned, you'd be dead. And that would suck more." He knelt in front of me and took my hands. "At least with you being a vampire I get to still see you."

We stared at each other for a moment. I smiled and felt this warmth all over. I felt happy and positive for once; everything really was magnified as a vampire.

"Matt, are you sure about this?" Stefan asked.

"Yeah. If anyone's going to help her turn, it's me. And I know she won't kill me. I trust you." Matt smiled up to me, not looking away from me.

"It's hard to pierce skin carefully when you've not done it before... maybe one of us...." Damon started, looking over to Stefan as he spoke.

"I trust Olivia not to kill me. I'm not sure on you two." Matt sniped at the brothers. But they understood him.

"How about me?" Tyler asked, "I just want to help." Tyler turned to look at me, "I love you Liv, I wanna help."

I smiled at Tyler, but from the corner of my eye I could see Damon's body tense and his face twist to anger staring at Tyler.

"Matty?" I asked, looking at my amazing cousin. He had been though so much and is volunteering to go through more. He nodded in agreement.

Tyler stood up and let Matt sit next to me, "OK, this is gonna be really weird but, try not to think about it." Tyler shrugged.

Matt moved his head to look away from me, exposing his neck. I could see his veins, hear his blood pumping through them and it took a lot to hold back not ripping into his neck there and then. Damon's hand on my a shoulder helped me stay back, reminded me to control myself.

Tyler leaned in and I caught a glimpse of his fangs pierce Matts skin. Matt let out a slight noise as I heard his skin pop open. Straight away I could smell the blood. My eye sight changed, all I was focused on was the blood as Tyler stood back. I felt my fangs cut through my gums and pop out. I leaned in close to Matt and bit down on his neck. It's true, it was difficult. I didn't want to hurt him; I was so conscious of that. So, I went over Tyler's mark and managed to get my fangs into the puncture wounds, sucking the blood out of Matt's neck.

It was a weird feeling, one I wish I never had to do again. But I knew I would have to.
The feeling of power and ecstasy ran throughout my body, it was as if I could feel his blood mixing with my own and making me feel so much more alive. Like I was draining his soul.

"Ok Liv, that's enough." I felt Stefan's hand on my shoulder but I didn't want to stop. I carried on sucking, drinking Matt's blood, getting every drop.

"Liv!" Tyler's voice came this time and something snapped inside me and I pulled away.

I looked at Matt. He grabbed a nearby towel and placed it on his neck as he looked at me properly. Fangs and all. His brow furrowed and he tried to hide the sadness.

"I'm sorry" I managed to pant out, jumping up and away from Matt. I felt like I couldn't be near him while he was bleeding.

"It's fine" he half smiled and lying down where I had been sat.

"How about you try the next part?" Stefan asked, taking my hand and moving me over to Matt, "Heal him."

I looked down at Matt who had now closed his eyes, holding the towel tight on his neck and pain all over his face. How could I bite my own wrist if I couldn't even bite someone else?

Damon pulled my hand gently, making me look up to him, and he smiled, "I'll do it."

Damon knelt down with me, and brought my wrist up to his mouth, my heart pounding against my chest which I could hear and feel all over my body. It was the strangest feeling. I could feel my blood pumping round my body, and hear Matts heartbeat getting faster and faster. Damon's fangs came into view before he pierced my skin and he pulled back a little, making a bigger, deeper cut to make sure Matt got enough blood.

Damon then moved away, took my hand and brought it up to Matt's mouth. Matt then clasped his lips round my open wound and began drinking my blood. After a few moments, he stopped and Damon removed my wrist. "There we go. Done" he smiled, making me feel a little bit better about what my life was now going to be like...