Mine

Chapter 17

AN: music is not necessary but I like it.
Derek's POV:
I look down at Addison on my chest and breathe deeply. It had been an hour since we had sex. An hour of Meredith consuming my mind. I had sex with my wife imagining it was Meredith. I take a deep breath as the tips of my limbs tingle. Gently, I move Addie off of me and slide out from the flannel sheets. I looked at the time and got in the shower. It was 5 AM. Quietly, I started the shower and got in. The warm water dripped down my body. I have to get to work. I turned the knob and the water turned cold. I let it wash over me and pushed the hair from my face. I felt sick like I wanted to throw up. The water washed away the sickness and I felt fresh. Jumping out of the shower, I quickly get dressed and get in the car. I take a deep breath and drive to the hospital.

I smile as I see Meredith as I walk along the hallway. Her golden hair flows down her shoulders and I see her eyes dancing in the light. My heart races as my fingertips tingle. I love her but I can not tell her. I freeze as I see her wearing a black leather jack that looks exactly like Finn's. I shake slightly as my feet take me towards her.
"Where did you get that jacket?" I ask rudely.
She steps back and her head tilts.
"Someone gave it to me. Are you alright Dr. Shepherd?" She asks.
"Yes. I am fine. Have a nice day." I say softly.
She looks confused as I walk away from her. I change into my scrubs and walk to a conference room. I think hard about how she has the exact jacket he does. My eyes stayed pinned on Meredith. Something is wrong. I don't know what it is.
"Dr. Shepherd, you have to sign a malpractice insurance paper before doing this surgery." A man in a suit says.
"Yeah okay," I say, watching Meredith filling out charts.
I pull out a pen and read a few lines of the paper. Upon hearing some people gasp, I look up and turn frantically.

I freeze as I see Finn by Meredith. They are laughing together. My heart beats fast as my blood boils. How dare he talk to Meredith?! He is wearing a long sleeve sweater and I feel myself about to burst as he pulls Meredith's hand and gives her a coffee. She laughs and he smiles. They seemed like they had already met. I shake with horror. The jacket on Meredith had to be his. She sips the coffee and smiles. I watch as she says something to make him laugh. I stand upright and walk out of the conference room. They continue laughing and his hand moves to her shoulder.
"You look nice in my jacket. You should keep it." He laughs.
My fist pulls itself back as Meredith turns to me. Her eyes widen as mine focus on Finn. Her hands grabs the front of his sweater and she pulls him as I let my arm fly. My fist hits nothing as I look at Meredith and Finn. Their bodies are pressed close together as I stare in horror.
"So, is this a 'yes' to my question?" He asks, laughing as she lets him pull back slightly but still holds his sweater.

What question? Are they dating? No. Meredith wouldn't date him. My main question pressed down above all. Why was she wearing his jacket? Were they together last night?

"Maybe it is. I'll meet you later. Before Derek tries to hit you again, you should probably go check in with the chief." I stare as Meredith speaks softly and her fingers let go of his sweater and my anger only rises.
He smiles and nods. His lips press into her cheek making me feel dizzy. Meredith smiles as he pulls away slowly. I watch as he leans into her ear and whispers something. They both laugh as he picks up his coffee and runs up the stairs.

Mer's POV:
I wake up in the light of the bright clouds. I smile as my body is warm. Glancing at my alarm clock, I jump out of bed and throw on a long sleeve shirt and jeans. Why did I oversleep?! I run to the bathroom and push a toothbrush into my mouth. As I brush, I think about Finn. I wasn't ready to date anyone yet. I still love Derek. I will always love Derek but I have to move on. I can't move on with Finn but I do need a friend who knows what I am going through. I spit in the sink and wash my face trying to push memories of Derek and me from my head.