._.Whatever I do to hide my feelings It come out voluntarily. I don't want to be comfortable with him again but he gave me comfort. I don't know how I feel, I was the first one to give up when I found out what he went through when my friends hid me. Even though I want to think about what I went through, I know It will not go beyond the pain he went through.
I never thought I would feel again what I felt when I first loved him, first I smiled at him. Everything I felt in the first step of our relationship before is the same feeling I feel now. The difficulty of being fragile. I rolled around on my bed and just stopped when I was stunned by the ceiling of the room where I was sleeping. I violently sat down and messed up my hair.
"Argh! Ang rupok-rupok. Rupok mo!" Padapa akong umupo at sumigaw sa unan. Then he lay down again but was sideways. I want to reassure myself if I really love or just infatuation with Zanth. I said goodnight to myself and started to fell asleep.
I WOKE up because of my phone alarm, kinapa ko ang cellphone ko at inisnooze ko 'yon saka muling natulog pero bumukas ang pinto at pumasok ang amoy ng kare-kare. Agad akong naupo at napaayos ng buhok at tumingin sa pinto. Si Zanth ang pumasok, magulo ang buhok niya at nakasalamin pa, naka apron rin siya saka ngumiti sa 'kin. Nagtaas ako ng kilay sakaniya.
"The breakfast is ready, Junella's awake." Nagulat man ay tumango nalang ako. Saka tumayo at sinuot ang reading glass ko saka excited na bumaba.
"Himala, gising kana?" Agad na bungad ko kay Junella.
Sumimangot naman siya. "Ayaw mo non?" Sumiring siya saka kinuha ang isang kuting saka ininjection 'yon.
"Ba't ininjectionan mo?" Hindi siya tumingin sa 'kin dahil busy naman siyang tinitignan ang bibig niyon.
"Maliit masyado ang mga kuting ni Debi, hindi normal ang liit nila. She's in early labor." Nakakunot niyang sagot. "Kapah hindi natutukan 'tong mga kuting na 'to, pwedi silang mamatay." Kunot noo niya paring dagdag.
"Hoy, Zanth."
"Yes?" Agad na lapit niya sa 'min.
"May malapit na Vet dito?" Umiling si Zanth. "Bakit wala?"
"Mostly, mga Vet guest lang ang tumitingin sa mga hayop dito. The Vet clinic na dapat maitatayo ay natigil." Paliwanag niya, napataas naman ng kilay si Ju.
"Kailangan isama sa manila tong nga 'to. Kailangan mabantayan sila. They're too little from the normal size of a kitten." Umiling siya at nilagay sa lalagyan ang mga kuting saka naghugas ng kamay. "Sa taas ako kakain, di ako natulog." Tumango ako saka umupo na sa counter island saka binuksan ang laptop ko.
"Ava." Tumingin ako kay Zanth ng tawagin niya ako.
"Yez?"
"Nasa manila na ang Car, you'll gonna see it next week." Nangunot ang noo ko saka nagsalukbaba..
"Akala ko ba ngayon?" Umiling siya saka inalis ang apron at naupo na sa harapan ko...
"May meeting ka, sabay-sabay nalang tayong umuwi sa manila sa friday. May meeting rin ako na client." Timango ako saka kumain ng nakangiti. Pareho kaming mabagal kumain dahil sa kwentuhan, we both laugh on our jokes, we share some funny moment and even share our trying dating another partner.
"Yeah, It didn't work." Sagot ko sa tanong niya. "After that, I never dated another again."
"Hmm, My secretary dated me, but I don't like her. So I fired her." Parang normal lang sakaniya 'yon pero eto akong gulat na gulat.
"You fired your secretary because she likes you?" Inosente siyang tumingin sa 'kin at tumango. "Why?!"
"I'm not into desperate girl." Napatanga naman ako.
BINABASA MO ANG
Under The Same Sky (#1) [UNEDITED]
Teen FictionIsland Series #1 -Completed- I was once lost in the midst of emptiness, in the midst of chaos and in the midst of pain. But, finally found the peace, way, and healing. Crying alone does not show that you are weak, but it shows you that you are stron...