Time to take a ✨oneshot✨

Lin's fyp

A/N: longing au

Lin opened TikTok. He hadn't been on the app in a while. Maybe he'd find something interesting. Maybe by the time V got back from the bathroom, he'd have a funny video to show her.

He swiped over to the for you page, earbuds in. The first video started out with calming music and a blank screen. It caught him off guard a bit, he was expecting a dance or cooking video, maybe something with cats. Not this.

Over the music, a voice rang in his ears.

"Just admit it."

"You're in love with them."

He sat gaping at the screen for a moment. Eyes pulled open. Mouth agape. He tilted his head. What kind of video was this? And who were they referring to?

He looked down at the caption.

"If this is on your fyp, it's meant for you :))))))"

Meant for him? What did that mean? Were they stalking him through his phone? How would they know what's meant for him?

He went to the comment section and commented- of course he used a fake name for his username, with no profile picture. He didn't want the publicity.

He commented: who is this supposed to be about?

A couple seconds later, the creator replied: whoever you thought about first ;)

He swallowed. Shit. V was the second person. He was in trouble.

It was times like these, despite how content he was, he regretted all his life decisions.

Why did he suddenly feel so hot? Why couldn't he breathe? Why were his cheeks soaked? When did that happen?

He exited out of the app and by the time V came in, he was heaving. Tobi stood at the foot of the bed, barking.

Vanessa rushed over, cradling him as soon as she got under the covers.

"Lin, Lin what's going on, honey? Talk to me," she begged. He sighed a couple more times, beginning to sob. Her heart shattered as he buried his face in the crook of her neck, staining her shirt with tears.

"I can't- I c-can't....." he tried. Talking wasn't his strong suit at the moment. V took his face in her hands, stroking his cheek, wiping some of the tears away.

"Should I change the Twitter password again?" she asked. It was something she had to do quite often, actually. No matter how overwhelmed he was, Lin couldn't get off of Twitter on his own terms.

Lin did his best to steady his breathing, tears still spilling out.

"It's not Twitter this time. It's TikTok....."

"TikTok? What happened?" If they were giving him hate on there again, she would not have it.

"I just- I," his breathing began to speed up again. Why did he even consider telling her? He couldn't hurt her. He wouldn't be able to live with himself if he did.

"Okay, okay, Lin?" he nodded, "breathe. Breathe with me, okay?" he tried his best, "you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to baby," she ran a thumb over his facial hair, bringing her hand up over his forehead to run through his hair. "Just tell me- are people giving you hate again?" he shook his head. "Okay that's all I needed to know," she kissed his forehead and let him cry into her shoulder some more.

His shoulders shook violently until the crying eventually stopped and she heard his light snoring. She always thought his snoring was the sweetest sound. Eventually she fell asleep too.

"Jonathan?" V woke up to Lin saying Groff's name over and over again. Huh? she thought in her sleep dazed state.

"Lin? Honey what's wrong?" No answer. He must've been sleep talking. A couple minutes later, he started again.

"No, Groffsauce stay please!" he cried, "please I can't live without you. I don't know. Let me fly to the moon with you."

Must've been a fun dream. V was so confused and was trying her best not to laugh. Especially since he seemed distraught.

"Groff. Groff? No! Come back!" he wailed, "I'm in love with you! Stop no don't hurt him! No!"

Suddenly, Lin jolted awake, breath caught in his throat, in a cold sweat. He threw a hand on his chest, unable to catch up with his breath.

Vanessa turned the light on, bringing him close.

"Here let's go in the kitchen, I'll get you some water." She guided him into the kitchen by the shoulders, sitting him down at a stool by the counter. He rested his face in his hands, elbows on the table, lids drooping despite his still slightly frantic state.

She handed him a tall glass of water to which he smiled gratefully, taking a sip.

V sat next to him, slinging an arm around his shoulder.

"Is now a bad time to tell you you talk in your sleep?" she whispered. Lin froze, holding his breath. He sighed.

"You know I still love you right?" She kissed his temple.

"Of course I do." She honestly didn't mind that he was in love with two people. She kinda already knew if she was being honest. She would've been fine with an open relationship, especially if it took the weight off his shoulders she thought it would.

Except that couldn't happen. Jon had a boyfriend. He was happy. They both knew that. God, he talked about Corey all the time. V could see how much it broke Lin's heart.

Maybe in another life.