Pierced Heart ✓

4. Never let the heart win

Couple of days later;

Standing in office formals near the glass window, he was lost in his thoughts. Thinking about the only girl who has ever affected him. Yes, he has left. Yes, he wanted her to suffer. Yes, it was revenge but can he ever agree to it that his heart never tried to stop him from doing that to her? No, he can't. He can't deny the fact that, she roams around his thoughts. Her words, her touch, the way she used to hug him, her eyes, her smile, nothing about her ever fade away from his memories.
His mind and heart always had battles and he never let his heart win because of his anger.

"I trust you more than anyone else. I can't imagine my life without you Sanskar." She said standing close to him looking into his eyes and smiled at him.

He fisted his hand as her words suddenly rang in his ears yet again.

"I am happy that she is not aware of the reality that she was betrayed. No one killed her Sanskar she loved. But it was Sanskar who killed her hope, her love, her belief." Riya's words striked his mind.

He closed his eyes gripping his fist tight. This guilt will always haunt him and he knew that always. Even before starting the game of his revenge. But the reason behind it never let him get diverted from his path. His jaw ticked and he opened his eyes abruptly that was showing anger. He gets another flashes of someone and her words were so hurting and painful to him.

"She killed my Love."

"She is murderer. She killed him in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything to save him."

"I don't want to live with this pain. I can't live without him Bhai."
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"I m Sorry Mr. Maheshwari but your sister is no....."

"Sanskar" He heard Arav's voice and he came back to his sense with jerk.

"Hmm, yeah Arav." Sanskar said composing himself a bit and turned around.

" You ready? Let's go. We have to leave for meeting." Arav said.

Sanskar took a sigh and nodded

"Hmm, yes... Yeah, let's.. let's go." He said averting his eyes from him.

"What happened to you Sanskar? You seem to be disturbed." Arav asked looking at him suspiciously.

"Nothing important. Let's go." Sanskar said picking up files.

"You are again thinking about her. Right?" Arav asked looking at him.

Sanskar looks on then nodded slowly.

"You know it Arav. I never thought in my life that I would ever do anything like that to any girl and but I did. I was never like what I became. I did the sin which is unforgivable and irony is that I always knew that after doing all that I won't be able to live in peace. Sometimes, I think what would happen if I had met her in different situation, without any motive of revenge." Sanskar said.

"Sanskar, I was also with you and we did that for our sister Sneha." Arav said.

Sanskar shook his head with sad chuckle.

"That's the only reason, I am giving myself since two year whenever my heart curse me for what I did, and it makes me feel like hell. I think that, may be I can't find peace but my sister is having peace. " Sanskar said.

"Being the reason of someone's smile is the best feeling in the world Arav but being the reason of someone's pain is more than hell itself." Sanskar added further sadly.

"You love her?" Arav asked looking at him.

Sanskar shook his head negatively with dry laugh.

"You shouldn't question this to me Arav. Because, if logically it is seen, no I didn't love her because the one who love someone, would never do what I did. But yeah, I was fallen for her even after knowing that she did worst with my sister. Even after knowing that She was reason of my sister's pain. Even after knowing that she was the killer of my sister's love. I never planned for falling for her but sometimes, you get defeated by your heart. At the end, I am also human Right? Still, I didn't let my heart win at last and I had choosen to punish her for what she did." Sanskar said looking away.