Merhayes Valentine's

Scared

Cormac's POV:
It's been a week since Meredith and I did the liver transplant on her secret peds patient. The patient ended up being for a nurse she used to work with. Nurse Olivia, her son needed a transplant but he didn't make it. It's always hard for Meredith to watch her patients die or suffer never mind a peds patient that she knew personally. I haven't spoken to Meredith or seen her. She was taking a break from peds and I was leaving her alone so she could wrap her head around the whole situation.

It's Monday. My alarm goes off on my phone so I grab it and turn it off. It's 3:25 in the morning and still dark out. I have an early shift today and get out late so I'm not particularly jumping out of bed. I lay in bed for a few minutes on my back just staring at the ceiling before sitting up and stretching. "Ahh." I say as I stretch my arms above my head. I walk downstairs as quite as possible and go to the kitchen. As I start to make coffee I look out the kitchen window. It's dark out and gloomy looking. I hear the sound of rain drops hitting the windowpane drip drop drip drip drop it's relaxing but also a little depressing. I take a deep breathe soaking in the smell of fresh coffee, the sound of the rain, and the quietness of the house. Early morning's are my favorite because they are calming. It's like the calm before the storm. It's quiet and perfect. Then the clock strike's five, cars start honking, people start yelling, the world starts and the storm comes. I pour some coffee in to a smooth small blue coffee cup and walk back upstairs being mindful of the boys who are asleep in their rooms. I take a few sips of coffee before walking into the bathroom.

I turn on the light squinting at how bright it is. I shake my head then continue to walk to the shower. I open the glass door pulling up the faucet so the water pours out of the shower head. I have multiple shower heads in my shower I have one at the top and then some on the sides. I get in the shower to feel the warm water hit my skin gently. I run my hands down my face as the water runs down it. My phone goes off so I reach opening the shower door and get my phone off the counter just to make sure it's not something important.

Meredith:
Hey... sorry if I woke you up.
3:45

Me:
Hey. You didn't wake me up I got up at 3:25... what's up?
3:45

Meredith:
Couldn't sleep. Why haven't we talked?
3:46

Me:
Hang on I'm in the shower I'll text you when I get out.
3:48

I smile stepping back into the warm water at the fact that Meredith texted me. I quickly finish my shower then turn the water off and walk out wrapping a towel around my waist tucking one corner in so it stays on. I pick up my phone.

Me:
Okay what's up?
3:58

Meredith:
Why haven't we talked? I miss you...
3:59

My heart drops as I read her text I feel my lips form a smile. I miss her too and all I've been able to think about is her. Her smile, her eyes, the way she tells stories.

Me:
I was giving you time to process everything. I miss you too...
4:01

Meredith:
Oh. I wasn't that close to Olivia I'm okay. Really she gave my friend Syph. Cormac...
4;02

Me:
Um that sounds like a really good story. Meredith...
4:06

Meredith:
It is a good story. Cor..
4:06

Me:
Mer..
4:07

Meredith:
Why are you copying me?
4:07