Merhayes Valentine's

Do you Remember?

Cormac's POV:
I heard what tuck said and I knew Meredith wasn't going to do to well with it. We all turn to look at her as her smile fades. "I agree tuck... I want a baby." She replies. I lightly squeeze her thigh knowing she was holding back tears. Joey gets excited as she says this. "Oh my god please! Cory would be such a good dad to a baby... uh especially if it's a girl." Joey says. Meredith looks down placing her hand over mine. "That baby would look like god- could you imagine? Oh my god and it would be so smart. Ugh can you guys please have one? The cute little baby noises and the face, of my goodness the snuggles." Tuck explains. Meredith stands up walking out of the room as a tear runs down her face. I look at Ben and Bailey "did- I- Cory..." tuck says. I look at him taking a deep breath as I hit the couch next to me. "Come sit down, both of you." I reply. Joey looks at me as his face falls. He knows what's happening. "Stop- are you kidding?" He asks. I look at him not replying. "No! Is she okay?" He asks. These boys have the biggest hearts, they care so much about everyone around them.

"What's happening? Why is Joey doing that? Is Mer okay?" Tuck asks as Meredith walks back in the room.

Meredith's POV:
I wanted to be honest with them, they deserve that. "Joey take a seat bud."'I say standing in front of them. "Boys, I... was pregnant. I-I-I uhm-" I wipe tears off my cheek as Cormac stands up walking behind me hugging me. "I had a miscarriage..." I explain. Tuck looks at me jaw dropped. Joey puts his phone and drink down as he stands up walking to me for a hug.

"I'm so sorry Meredith... so so sorry." He whispers as he hugs me. I hug him back still crying. "Thank you Joey." I reply as he pulls away. "Like mom? You- you lost the baby like mom did?" Tuck questions. I nod unable to form any words.

"Why? Why the hell does this happen? You're good people. You're good parents and you would be perfect for a baby. The baby would be so damn cute. Why? You didn't deserve this you both deserve to be happy, you don't- why?" He asks. I look over my shoulder at Cormac who is crying too. I look at Bailey as she wipes a tear off her face. "Tuck you're right. They don't deserve this no one does but it happens and there's nothing anyone can do. Sometimes it just doesn't work." Ben says because hes  the only one who isn't crying.

I wrap my arms around Cormac hugging him as he cries. "Meredith... are you okay?" Joey asks. I force myself to smile resting my head on Cormac's chest. "I'm fine... thank you Joey." He doesn't reply he can tell I'm not and so can everyone else.

How could I be? I lost a child. I am the one that's supposed to keep my children safe that's my job it's simply, and I couldn't do it. I can't hold my baby, look at it, give it a name, it's gone. Forever, I'm not fine, I'm not okay. This is going to affect me for a while but people depend on me I don't have the option to take a break or breath.

"No you're not." Joey protests. I sigh knowing he was right. "Joey I'm good. I'm okay, things happen for a reason." Cormac wraps his arms around me tighter as I look up at him. "Are you okay?" I ask. He nods and smiles. I mouth "okay" looking back at Joey.

Cormac's POV:
It's been two days since Meredith found out she was having a miscarriage. She stayed home yesterday because Bailey told her she was not allowed to come in. Bailey was doing it out of love. She knows Meredith is hurt and knows how Meredith handles herself.

"How is she?" Bailey asks walking into the attendings lounge. I look at her shaking my head. "Not good Bailey. She won't talk about it, she won't look me in the eyes. I know she's hurt but I want to be able to help her." I reply sitting down at the table. "She'll crack... she needs time to process it, eventually she will walk into your office and break down." Bailey sits down across from me. I nod knowing that was very true but also knowing Meredith was really hurt, mentally and physically. "I just hate to see her like this... hurt and sad." I say looking down. "I know, she'll be back." Bailey says walking out of the room.

Dark and twisty Cristina said mer goes dark and twisty that she will push herself away from everyone and that I need to push back.

I take my phone out paging Meredith 911 to my office.

Meredith's POV:
I walk into Cormac's office knowing he didn't actually need me. "What?" I had an attitude I was pissed off in general and didn't want to be talking. "Close the door." Cormac's voice was stern and cold. I turn around closing the door before looking back at Cormac. "Wh-what's happening?" I question almost scared. "Take a seat." He replies completely ignoring me. "Hayes..." I protest. "Sit down Meredith." He says keeping his cold tone of voice. I sit down in the chair that was in front of his desk.

"Do you remember the first time we went out... we were friends and it was Valentine's Day. I took you to Jackson's party begging to take you home instead?" He questions. I smile remembering the exact day. It played like a movie in my head. "Mmm I do." I reply smiling.

"You told me no, that we could leave early and friends don't kiss. We went to the party because I'm not the kind of guy to push a woman into doing something they don't want." I laugh lightly as he says this because it's true.

"We went our separate ways, but then I texted you and asked you to meet me by the stairs... Meredith you looked beautiful I mean jaw dropping just- beautiful. I kissed you... for arguably a little longer than I should've." I nod looking Cormac in the eyes as I smile. "That was a good kiss..." I reply Cormac makes a surprised face "was? Are you implying I don't kiss good now?" He questions I roll my eyes. "No babe, you kiss good I mean really good. I'd honestly say you're better than almost everyone I've been with." I reply. He shakes his head.

"Do you remember-" Cormac gets interrupted by a knock at the door. "Hang on" he says. I nod.

Cormac's POV:
I open the door to see Bailey, I look back at Mer stepping out of my office into the hall closing the door behind me. "Nows not a good time." I say. Bailey looks at me confused. "Is she okay we need her for a surgery." She explains. "Not now, page Wilson." I say. Bailey nods. "Okay."

I walk back into my office sitting back down in my chair facing Meredith.

"Do you remember the first real date I took you on... I picked you up at your house, the kids didn't want you to leave I said we didn't have to go and you said take me out babe. So I took you to a very fancy restaurant, we sat down and then we immediately left." I laugh telling the story as I run my hand down my face "you said 'take me home babe' at the end of the night you were in my button up shirt, it was short but long at the same time. You looked adorable. We were laying in bed and you said, you said I love you." I explain. Meredith nods.

"And you didn't respond so I freaked out... which you didn't know. You thought I had fallen asleep but I didn't I was laying there wide awake because I thought I over stepped. You kissed my shoulder and said "Meredith I love you" Cor when you said that I died a little. Hearing you love me god I love it so much." Meredith explain with the biggest smile ever. "There's that smile I love." I say as our eyes lock. "You're an ass." She replies with a small laugh. "Am I or are you mad I made you happy when you want so badly to be pissed?" I ask. Meredith stands up walking to me.

"Cormac Hayes I love you."

AUTHORS NOTE:
I took a little bit to re-read some of the older chapters of this story and became obsessed with it so I wanted to bring some of the older chapters alive again. This story line is going to end fast because I hate it and it ruined the story. I didn't proofread this and hope u enjoy it.