Wounded Heart (Heart Series #1)

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

"Stop crying, Bellatrix. You're stronger than this," paulit-ulit kong bulong sa sarili ko sa harap ng salamin. I'm used to this feeling. But damn. I can't help but to cry. Am I this weak to cry everytime?

Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang kumawala sa mga mata ko. I took a deep breathe before going back to the pool side. Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay nagulat ako nang biglang sumulpot si Kuya Rigel. Dali dali siyang pumunta sa toilet para sumuka. Maya maya lang ay kasunod na niya si Kuya Arc.

"Damn you, Rigel. I've never seen you this wasted," umiiling na saad ni Kuya Arc.

"Did he drunk too much, Kuya?" I asked out of curiosity. Kuya Rigel has the highest alcohol tolerance among all of us.

"Yeah. I think? I don't know with this asshole. Maya't maya nag-chug."

Pagkatapos sumuka ni Kuya Rigel ay binatukan n'ya si Kuya Arc. "Shut up, Kuya."

Bumalik na kami sa may pool side. Nagpalit na kami ni Ate Lunairre ng swimsuit para makalusong kami sa pool tulad nila Kuya.

"Fuck!" sigaw ko nang bigla akong tinulak ni Kuya Zyrus sa pool. I wasn't ready!

"Kuya naman, e!" Pinuntahan ko si Kuya at hinatak din siya sa pool. Winisikan n'ya tuloy ako ng tubig sa mukha.

"Don't mind your brother, Trix. He's just can't fucking get over Jasmine," natatawang saad ni Kuya Rio bago uminom ng beer.

"I fell in love with my best friend..." Kuya Rigel Chanted.

"I can show you the world... Shining, shimmering, splendid..." hirit pa ni Kuya Arc.

"Damn you," seryosong saad ni Kuya Zyrus.

Magtuloy-tuloy ang asaran. Masaya, maingay. But I can't get over with what I heard from mom. How can she think of the crown without thinking about me nor my feelings. Mag-aalas tres na ng umaga at kakaunti na lang ang drinks namin. Si Kuya Zyrus ay nakatulala habang umiiyak. Si Kuya Rigel naman ay napaka-kulit na.

"Damn you, Jasmine. How could you fucking do this to me? I gave you everything... and this is what I get? I wish I shouldn't have met you if you're gonna hurt me like this." Patuloy pa rin na umiinom si Kuya. It's obvious that he drunk much that his face is already reddish but that didn't stop him from drinking.

Honestly, I don't know if I can bear the pain Kuya is going through. He's been with Ate Jasmine for almost his entire life. They were childhood best friends that turned into lovers. This is why I don't wanna fall in love with a friend. I'd rather lose love than to lose both love and friendship like what Kuya is going through.

"Hey, Kuya Arcturus! So funny, right? Binabago ko sarili para sa kanya. Pero putangina makikita ko siya may kasamang ibang lalaki. It damn hurts like hell!" Tumatawa si Kuya Rigel habang naiyak.

Is this really the consequence of love? Kailangan talagang sumugal? Masaktan? I don't know if I can endure the pain my brother and my cousins going through right now. They look so strong and heartless, yet they are here crying because of their girls. I don't think I can do that with someone I love. Pero sino nga ba ang mahal ko? I had a 'puppy love' back in highschool but mom and dad forbid us. Ngayon, hindi ko alam kung may mahak na nga ba ako at hindi ko lang maamin.

Nang maubos ang drinks ay umakyat na rin ako sa kwarto ko. I took a shower and did my night routine. I lay down my bed but I still couldn't sleep. I should be celebrating for my achievement yet I feel so lonely. Kahit kailan, gusto nila na manalo ako sa kahit na anong bagay. They say that I should excel with everything I do because I am a Dixon. Pero dahil sa paniniwala nilang 'yon, nakalimutan na nilang tanungin kung masaya pa ba ako. Nakalimutan na nilang isipin 'yong nararamdaman ko. They care about the titles, the crown, the awards but they never cared about me. I thought, after that night, everything would be better. But mom proved me wrong. They are my family yet I couldn't feel it.