Wounded Heart (Heart Series #1)

Epilogue

Epilogue

Akala ko, hindi na siya mawawala sa tabi ko. I thought that we'll always be together, just like the promise we made before. But now, it's over. The only woman I love this hard left me. It was my fault for not being so honest.

I cried as vivid memories flashed on my mind. We were so happy and in love... that I never thought we could come to an end. Nakaupo ako sa veranda ng kwarto ko habang hindi ko mapigilan ang mga luha ko. I looked up at the sky expecting to see the moon, but I failed. I guess it was new moon.

The moment we officially started, and the exact words she said while breaking up with me replayed whenever I closed my eyes. Her words from the latter were overlapping with the sweetness of her 'yes'. 

"Why do we need to come to an end? You were my moon, right?" I whispered. 

Every single memory that flashes on my mind had left my heart aching. Paanong ang masayang relasyon namin ay nauwi sa ganito? We just planned our vacation for my birthday, but here I am, crying alone as I lost my moon. 

"Trixie, please. Hear me out. Please... I have only love you... only you," I begged, almost on my knees.

Hindi ko na mabilang kung pang-ilang beses na akong nagmamakaawa sa kanya. I was also hurt with every words coming from her, but I can't really blame her. 

"Hear you out? Do you think there's a fucking good reason for you to have a girl in her robes inside your condo?!" Pinaghahampas niya ako. "You think I will believe more with your bullshit reason, huh?!"

I cried harder. "Just let me explain, please? You know how much I love you. This... t-this is just a misunderstanding. Let's fix this, please," I pleaded as my voice broke.

She scoffed. "Love? Ganoon ka ba magmahal? Ang sakit, e. Altair, ang sakit ng ginawa mo!" she screamed right in front of me.

My vision was already blurry pero bakas ko ang mga luha niya.

"Umuwi ka na. I don't need a cheater in my life," she said without any emotion in her face. "Fucking leave!"

I slowly nodded, accepting my defeat. "Okay, love. As you wish." I wiped my tears with the back of my hand. "But I never cheated on you. Ikaw lang ang minahal ko nang ganito, Trixie... ikaw lang."

I spent my days crying in my condo. I don't feel alive. Simula noong naghiwalay kami, gumuho lahat ng pangarap ko. I don't know where to start again when every little thing reminds me of her. I was shattered into pieces and felt my heart bleeding with every false accusation she said. Pero wala akong magawa dahil iyon ang nakita niya. I want to get mad at her for not letting me explain... but I can't because she's too blinded by the pain I've caused her. 

Umupo si Mama sa tabi ko at hinawakan ang kamay ko. "Anak, I know that it wasn't easy for you, but you have to rise up. Go fix yourself. You can't stay like this, Altair. You are barely living!" sunod-sunod na sabi ni Mama. I glanced at her and saw tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Ma, hindi ko alam paano magsisimula," I sobbed. 

She tightened her grip on my hand. "You can get through this, you have to. Do this for Mama... please?" She cried harder. "Look at yourself, anak. Halos hindi ka na kumakain at nagpapaka-subsob ka sa trabaho mo. Don't treat yourself like that. You know what, every single time I see you struggling and hurting, my heart hurts even doubled as you are feeling," she reminded me. I felt pure love and genuine care from her words.

I covered my face using my hands. Seeing her cry like this breaks my heart. Hindi madaling bumangon. "I'm sorry, Ma. Pangako, aayusin ko na ulit ang buhay ko."