Wounded Heart (Heart Series #1)

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

"Kuya?" I looked around the hospital room but I see no one. "Kuya Zyrus?" I called for his name louder. Nagsimula na naman akong kabahan nang wala pa ring sumagot sa 'kin. I don't even know why I am here. Dahan-dahan akong tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga. Lalabas sana ako nang biglang bumukas ang pinto kaya napahiga uli ako.

"Trixie, you're awake." Iniabot niya sa 'kin ang lasagna na hawak niya.

"Kuya naman, tinakot mo 'ko! Bakit kasi ang tagal mo tapos bigla ka na lang pumasok!" I ranted.

"Kanina pa ba gising? I'm sorry, I just checked on Alcor," he explained.

I nodded. It still feels surreal that my Kuya is now a father. May pamilya na rin siya. Parang dati lang, ako lang ang ipinagtatanggol niya.

"Hmmm... what happened, by the way?" He seemed not to get what I meant. "I mean, why am I here in the hospital?" I repeated to make it clear.

"Oh. You had a panic attack and passed out," he replied before looking at me seriously. "Trixie, please seek for medical help. This already happened several times."

I nodded. Ayaw ko talaga pero alam kong tama si Kuya. "Okay. You won't deprive me of going to New York as long as I have security, right?" panglilinaw ko.

"Yeah." He sighed. "Just be extra careful."

"Great. I don't want to live like this. I want to go back to the things I love." I plastered a small smile.

That same night, I scheduled an appointment with a psychologist referred by Kuya Rio for tomorrow. Hindi rin naman ako inaantok kaya pumunta muna ako sa backyard dala ang camera ko. I took pictures of the moon. Walang kupas na hiwaga.

"Mind telling me what happened?" Rinig kong usal ni Kuya Zyrus na nasa likod ko na pala. Umupo siya sa tabi ko.

I gave him a controlled smile. "Dinalan ko kasi si Altair at Zach ng carbonara. Hmmm... thank you gift for helping me that night. Sandali lang sana ako pero inaya ako sa park ni Altair. Well, I thought it could be the chance to talk about what happened between us. Besides, he never got the chance to explain his side."

"Oh, tapos?"

"He explained everything to me. I found out that Mom want him to leave me. Hindi raw siya nakakabuti sa 'kin." I scoffed. "If only they did know that Altair gave me the love I anticipated from them. He even gave me more than that."

Kumunot ang noo ni Kuya. "So, paanong nakita mo siya kasama ang ibang babae?"

"Well, he told me that he was miserable that he called his friends for a drink. There, he was too drunk that he did not know why he ended up alone with that bitch!" I emphasized the word 'bitch'.

"Mahal mo pa," replied.

I chuckled. "Was that a question or a statement?"

"That was a statement. Clearly, you still love him. Well, three months isn't long enough to move on."

"Ikaw, have you ever tried of moving on. I mean before?" I asked, referring to Ate Jasmine.

"I tried, of course. But unfortunately, I can't. The almost three years without her made me miserable."

I remained silent for a few moments. Love is definitely something unexplainable. "Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. Tatlong buwan pa lang kaming magkahiwalay pero ang dami nang nangyari sa 'kin."

Sandali pa kaming nag-usap ni Kuya bago siya umalis para puntahan si Alcor. I remained sitting there. Ang dami ko pa ring tanong na hindi pa nasasagot. I have so many what ifs. What if we were still together? Mangyayari pa rin ba 'yong nangyari sa 'kin?