Iduy + Jlmuy Extras/side stories

Tsukishima || A terrible feeling

I can't explain it but just go with it. I've never really written from characters pov's so don't be triggered.

Tsukishima's pov

I remeber the first time I saw her, as much as I'd deny it if anyone actually asked me what I thought. She was loud, and from what I saw, she really didn't have any friends. Though she was loud and acted as if anyone within a ten-mile radius was her best friend, she'd have one-sided conversations and laugh about jokes only she could understand. And it annoyed me that she'd laugh and laugh even though no one understood a word she was saying, I wanted to understand why she was laughing to see if it actually made sense or if she was just stupid.

I know now that she was just sad.

But the day she trailed along to the gym with Yamaguchi after doing something stupid, I wanted her to leave. I wanted to hate her, she was so annoying and found a way to piss me off even if wasn't actually trying to.

"Do you even like this sport?" she had asked.

That's not something new that someone had asked me, but it's something people have stopped asking me. Because the answer is yes, I do like this sport. Off the topic of volleyball, because that's the least of my worries right now.

It made me happy that out of all the people on the team she had asked me to walk her home, even though it was most likely out of convincing I actually enjoyed lugging her around. I liked how dramatic she'd get over even the smallest of things, and if I'm being honest I just liked to be around her.

I gave up on trying to convince myself that I hated her because it was just getting stupid as I spent more and more time with her. It seemed to be that everyone but her could see that I had a crush on her, she was completely oblivious from what I know. And I was thankful for that.

After I had finally kissed her, and we were officially a couple my mother told me about the conversations she had with her. They were funny, but I chose not to poke fun at her about them, mostly because my mother didn't want to be seen as the gossiping mom.

"So Kei, tell me about your new girlfriend," my mother said.

"You've met her before, you know her," I said. "You don't need me to give you a rundown."

"Yes but I met her as your friend, not as your girlfriend," she said. "Pretend that I've never met her, and you're setting up a good background before I do. Tell me about her."

I didn't see the point in just avoiding it, I know that she'd just keep asking because that just the type of person she is.

"She's loud, annoying, makes weird faces, doesn't know when to stop talking, and she sleeps a lot," I said. "But you'd like her."

"What makes you think I'd like her?" she asked. "What if I don't approve of her?"

"Well then I guess you just won't like her then, but it doesn't necessarily matter," I shrugged. "You're not the one dating her."

"What? DOn't you care about my approval?" she asked. "I'm your mom."

"Well you'd like her," I said. "It's impossible to hate her, so I wouldn't even have to think about you not liking her."

"You really love this girl don't you?" she asked, with one of her sweet smiles.

"Mom, we just started dating," I said. "It's too early for that stuff."

"I'm so happy that at least one of my sons has a girlfriend," she said.

"Whatever," I said.

"And what is the name of your lovely girlfriend?" she asked.

"You know her name," I said. "This is dumb."

"Were pretending that I don't know her," she said. "Now go on."

"Her name is Ushijima Y/n," I said fighting the urge to roll my eyes at my mother.

A name, you'd never really think that it would ever be so difficult just to name someone. But if you really look at it the more you know someone the more you get to know their name, and the more memories get strapped onto it.

"Such a pretty name," she said.

"Yeah, it's just named," I said. "It's pretty I guess."

It's beautiful, she's beautiful. Her smile, it's beautiful. But the face she makes when she's sad is heartbreaking. And I'm not talking about tears, and all the obvious signs of so one being sad. I'm talking about the completely shattered, defeated, and deflated kind of sadness that's plastered on her face. I tried to be there to make it go away, I hated it.

But right now, I'm the one to blame for the crushed expression she was trying to cover up with a smile, just for my sake.

It's a terrible feeling really.

Each chapter will have a little title, and what character(s) it's about, and if it's a specific scene I might add that to the title of the chap as well. You guys can keep on requesting chapters too.

-Crouton