Carry You ~Eddie Diaz

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Sam's POV:

January 17th, 2020

My hands were raised above my head and I couldn't control the increasing fear flowing through my veins. I was trying to keep myself composed, but he kept screaming at me, which was so unexpected. He had me pinned against the wall and I was crying, he hit his hands on the wall by my head. I just never expected that he would hurt me, but here he is, holding a gun to my head.

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I was sitting in my office at school, I had my door shut and was completely alone and I was grateful for that. I was able to cry in peace this way. Eddie and I got into a huge fight this morning and we left things on a bad note, I stormed out of the house because I didn't want him to see me cry.

Things have been rocky because of my replacement, Ana Flores, she won't take the hint that I'm with Eddie and that he is not single. It's like dealing with another Lena. She was flirting with him during parent-teacher conferences and I tried to let it go but she won't stop talking about him. I even tried to rub the fact that Eddie gave me a ring in her face, but she called it cute and moved on. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy, but how he smiles at her is similar to how he looks at me. Maybe it's because Ana reminds him of Shannon, but regardless, it still hurts. I keep replaying this morning's events over and over in my head.

I was putting my stuff together for school today when Eddie walked out of our room, "Good morning babe,"

"Morning,"

"What's got you so tired?" I asked with a laugh.

"Ms. Flores and I had a Skype meeting last night."

I made a face, "Why?"

"She wanted to talk about Christopher,"

"What about him? He's doing great in school."

"She was expressing concerns about him playing sports during recess."

I was taken aback, Eddie had never had a problem with his son playing sports until now. "Why is this a problem now?"

"Well, he could get really hurt, I guess I never thought about it until Ana said something,"

"Oh, so it's 'Ana' now? Eddie, Christopher has been playing sports for months, you have seen how happy it makes him."

Eddie rolled his eyes, "I know that! But he could get seriously hurt. I don't want him playing sports anymore!"

I was about to respond when a fully dressed Chris walked out of his room with tears in his eyes. "But I love playing soccer, it makes me feel closer to you."

Eddie sighed, "Christopher, I'm sorry-"

"Don't, I'm ready for school, Sam."

I nodded, "Go on out to the car, I'll be there in just a second." I watched him walk out the door before turning back to Eddie and raising my eyebrows. "Nicely done,"

"Don't even try and go there."

I was so irritated at this point, that I glanced at Eddie and shook my head, "We will finish this conversation later, try not to talk to Ms. Flores till I get home."

"And what's that supposed to mean?"

"You know what I mean!" I snapped.

Eddie groaned, "Ugh, you can be so annoying!"

"Glad to know how you truly feel,"

"Just leave, Sam."

I crossed my arms and stared at him, "What's gotten into you? It seems like you don't want me around anymore."

"Maybe I don't!"

I was taken aback by that, "Then just end things if you're unhappy."

"Maybe I will," I felt the tears prick my eyes and could see his regret. "Sam-"

"No," I walked out of the house and to my car, I made sure Christopher was buckled and Eddie ran after me but I was already gone, he would not see me cry.

That was probably the worst pain I have ever felt, even drowning and tearing my ACL felt better than that. Things at school have been really shitty lately, I'm just relieved I have Iris, Marian, and Gabrielle. They seem like my only allies now. Even Henry Lance is completely dodging me, which I didn't mind in the slightest, he isn't even here today. I felt sick to my stomach, Eddie had been calling me all morning but I didn't have the emotional strength to answer the calls.

There was a knock at my door and I wiped my tears away and opened the door, I smiled at the little boy and stepped aside so he could come in. "How's class going so far, Chris?"

"Good, recess was boring, I wanted to play soccer really bad,"

I sighed, "I understand, I'm sure your father will come around." I was playing with my promise ring the entire time.

"Is everything okay? You seem sad."

I smiled at Christopher, "You're a smart kid, I'm okay."

"Are you sure? You and my dad seemed really upset this morning."

I hugged Christopher, "It was just an argument,"

"Promise?"

I was trying my best not to let any tears fall, "I promise."

Christopher and I both jumped when the fire alarm went off. I looked at him and immediately ran to my door and locked it, I shut my blinds and went back over to Chris. "What's going on?"

"Lockdown,"

Eddie's POV:

I was so angry with myself, that I did it again, I hurt one of the people I love most. I don't know if there's any way that I can come back from it this time either, I was trying to hide my frustration throughout work but I was failing. The alarm went off for the 6th time in an hour, I was beyond annoyed, I was hoping for a slow day but that wasn't going to happen. We all got into the engine before taking off. "What's going on with you, Diaz?" Chimney asked.

I shrugged, "I guess you could say I woke up on the wrong side of the bed."

"Everything okay with She Buckley?" Hen added.

"I think so,"

"What do you mean by that?" Buck asked.

Before I could answer, the engine stopped and we were at our location, we all got out and I gave a weird look to Bobby, "Why are we at the school?"

Athena walked over and pulled Bobby to the side. He walked back over and they looked at Buck and me, "The fire alarm is going off, which for this school means lockdown."

I drew my eyebrows together, "Why are they in lockdown?"

Bobby grabbed ahold of my arms and Athena grabbed ahold of Buck, "There's an active shooter inside."