Letter nine.
Status: unsent.
Current location: the fireplace in the school common room.
Peter,
I will never send this to you. This is only a way for me to get my feelings out and nothing more.
Narnia changed us. I thought it was for the better, but it's made you angrier. You fight someone new almost every day. I didn't even know there were that many people in these schools. You're going to run out of strangers soon. What then? Am I next? Susan? Lucy?
You never seem to have time for us. I just want you to hold me. Give me a fucking hug once in a while. I would never really swear in front of you, but good god do I want to sometimes. Tell me you love me. Make me feel like maybe I have a reason to wake up in the morning. Oh wait, I don't have to, because I never sleep! The stupid fucking nightmares won't go away again and I can't even tell you about it! I hate this! Honestly, sometimes (most of the time) I just wish I wouldn't wake up. Ever again. Fuck life.
Forever yours,
Lilith
♔
lilith swearing is my aesthetic.
i hope you have a great day/evening!
- cecily <3
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Fanfiction❛ REMEMBER WHEN I SAID I WOULDN'T EVER LET YOU GO, THAT YOU WERE STUCK WITH ME? I MEANT IT. ❜ in which letters are exchanged between a found family throughout their lives.
