Worth it |Mattia Polibio

Part 31

Jordon pov

I hated this feeling.

The feeling of always being drained and unbothered to do anything. I had lost quite a lot of weight and that frustrated me because it took so long for me before to maintain a healthy one.

I loved how everyone still tried to keep my mood up though. I was so thankful for all of them being around me and trying to keep me happy.

I was smiling at the boys all around me, laughing. Roshaun was telling some story to us and they were all bawling their eyes out. Kai was taking pictures of everything on my camera, and I rolled my eyes because whenever he had that in his hands he always wasted a ton of film.

I was sat comfortably in mattia's lap and I could feel and hear him laugh too. I looked up at at him subtly and smiled because I loved seeing him happy.

I got out of his arms, " where are you going?" He asked me quietly whilst the boys were still talking.

" I just need to go to the bathroom," I told him.

He started getting up, " you need any help?" He asked and I shook my head.

" no I'll be fine," I said smiling at him.

" are you sure?" He asked.

I nodded again, " yeah, I'm sure," I went upstairs to go to the bathroom to do my business.

When I was done I was washing my hands and I looked up to see myself in the mirror.

My face was starting to look hollow and I was loosing the chubbiness of my cheeks. I stepped back a little and I gripped the sweater I was wearing tighter around me. I sighed sadly seeing how I was slowly becoming just skin and bones.

Getting to eat was a lot harder now and if it honestly weren't for Mattia or dad's encouragement I doubt I'd eat at all. I really wanted to but I always felt nauseous after and it always hurt my neck and chest.

I suddenly felt nauseous again and I leaned over the toilet. I retched and I vomited into it, I was feeling a little too weak to stand up so I fell to my knees and carried on vomiting.

" Jordon?" I heard the door behind me and by his voice I knew it was Mattia.

I felt him rub my back whilst I was still vomiting. When I was done, he helped me stand up and lifted me. He sat me down on the bathroom counter in front of the mirror.

" you feeling better?" He asked and I nodded. I reached over for my toothbrush and toothpaste so I could get the nasty taste out of my mouth.

" just a little....a little drained," I said to him honestly.

" you wanna have a nap or something?" He asked.

I shook my head, " not yet, maybe later. I need to have a shower first and I'll probably have that after the boys go," I said to him.

I spat out the toothpaste and washed my toothbrush putting it to the side. I wiped my mouth and dried it with the towel.

He put his hands on either side of me, on the counter top and rested his forehead on mine.

" want me to stay over tonight?" He asked me and I smiled a little.

" if it's not too much-"

" it isn't," he said quickly and I smiled, " I'll call my mom and tell her," he said, making my smile widened.

He gave me a small kiss on the end of my nose and he leaned in giving me a kiss on my lips.

I cupped his face bringing him a little closer to me and and I felt him smile a little against my lips.