Worth it |Mattia Polibio

Part 11

Jordon pov

This is probably the third time this week he's come and dad was getting angrier whenever he saw him in the room.

" come on Mr Fanelli . Aren't you tired off this?" Mattia asked dad as he ran around my room again. Mattia quickly dodged past him and waved at me, " bye Jordon, see you later!" He yelled before running out again.

Dad was panting heavily and looked over at Fiona, my nurse, " you let him in?"

" well I can't keep him out." She said finding this whole thing amusing, " plus it's not on you who gets to visit Jordon," she said smiling at me. Dad tutted and walked out of the room. Fiona shook her head, " your dad has to be the most temperamental person I've ever met," she said whilst writing stuff down on my record.

" I think it's just when Mattia's around, he gets pretty riled up," I told her.

" yeah my dad didn't like any of the guys I went out with either." Fiona said.

" what did you do about it?" I asked her.

She shrugged, " nothing. I listened to him. But look where that got me, 40 and I'm still single. And then my father has the nerve to say it's all my fault. He keeps pestering me now to find a husband," she laughed a little.

" you don't need one if you don't want one," I told her, " you don't have to get married,"

She sighed, " I do, you know to keep him happy?" she walked round to the other side of my bed to check out the heart monitor," it's complicated,"

" it's not Fiona. I'm sure you love your dad and all but you can't keep doing things to make him happy. This is your life your living, I'm not sure what your beliefs are but how I see it is you've only got one life to live, so live it to the fullest. Live it how you want to live it."

" but what will-"

" who cares what anyone else thinks or says," I said interrupting her. She looked at me and I smiled at her, " you're not in this world to live up to their expectations, you're here to live up to yours,"

She put the sheets down and smiled, " I...I..thanks Jordon," I smiled and I stood up and gave her a hug, " I really needed that,"

It felt good being able to make her feel better. I've known Fiona for a good few years and it felt nice being able to take care of her like how she took care of me.

I sat back on my bed and she carried on checking all the monitors. A few minutes later dad walked back in looking pretty pleased with himself, " wow, I didn't know you were capable of smiling," Fiona said to him and he rolled his eyes at her, " you didn't kill the child did you?" She asked.

" no," dad said regretfully, " but I did the best I could. He won't be able to make it through the front door now,"

" dad what did you do?" I asked him.

He smiled to himself, " you'll probably find out the next time he tries to come in," he checked the time, " I gotta get to work," he walked over to me and kissed my forehead before leaving.

*****

" I'm not allowed in the fucking building!" Mattia  told me whilst face timing me. He was in the hospitals car park and he was telling me how security at the front door didn't let him come in, " they can't do that can they? I can sue them for that right?" He asked me whilst running his hands through his hair furiously.