"(y/n)- (y/n), please let me- just let me explain." Draco tried to catch up with me as I was walking really fast.
He had an aplogetic look on his face, worried even. Worried to have hurt me, even though he knew he did. His voice shook a little as he was calling me by my name. It sounded like he had the urge to cry, but forced himself not to.
I was breathing heavily and wiped the tears out of the corner of my eyes, not allowing them to escape.
Somehow, he managed to grab my arm and yanked me back, causing me to be really close to him. Our chests were touching and I freed my arm out of his grip harshly.
He tilted his head and furrowed his eyebrows as he looked at me with his glassy eyes.
"What?! What, Draco?!" I almost shouted and he tried to walk closer as I just stepped back.
"I- I- (y/n), it was a mistake. I made a huge mistake. I-"
"A mistake?" I smiled sarcastically and crossed my arms.
"I didn't mean to- I'm so sorry, (y/n). I love you and only you. You have to believe me!" His voice echoed in the hallway, since nobody else was around.
"Ah, therefore you slept with Daphne? Because you love me and only me, right?" I mocked him.
I couldn't believe him. Years we loved each other, years we were each other's best friend, years we trusted each other, yet he decided to ruin it. He decided to ruin everything, me, us.
"Did you even plan on telling me?" My voice cracked and came out as a whisper.
"I-" he was speechless, couldn't find the right words. He looked to the side and bit the inside of his cheek, his eyes turning more glassy.
"You- you wanted to keep it a secret? To betray me secretly? So if I hadn't found out-" I tried to stop my voice from shaking by swallowing hard. "Then you would have pretended it never happened?" I whispered.
"(y/n), I was-" he stopped, not really knowing how to express himself.
"You wanted my attention, you wanted to explain. Do so, go on." I crossed my arms once more.
"(y/n), you have to believe me, I love you. Please don't leave me. I'm nothing without you."
"And what exactly was different when you were on top of Daphne Greengrass?" I shook my head, waiting for him to respond. Once again, he was speechless.
"You're ridiculous." I whispered and began to walk again.
"(y/n)" he called after me and I turned around, not being able to take it anymore.
"Draco Malfoy, stop trying to explain yourself." I finally let it out, I cried. ,,You're making it hard, just stop making me face you." I said through my teeth. "Don't you understand?" I said, walking back to him. "You were everything to me. I loved you. I loved you, I loved you, I loved you." I punched his chest with every word I said.
"(y/n),-" he held my wrists as my head collapsed on his chest.
"Draco, don't." I felt dizzy like I'm gonna fall any second, but I didn't let it happen. I looked up to him, a hair strand falling on my face.
"I always thought I would end up with you. I- I just didn't have anyone else in mind. I just couldn't imagine you being gone." I shook my head and looked at the floor, smiling in pain. "You know" I raised my head and made eye contact. "I always thought, that we would live together." I said slowly. ,,That, perhaps, we'd have a little family, children, a nice house filled with love. Spending nights together, talking and laughing, sitting on a balcony and watching the rain, watching the moon while my head's on your chest." I smiled at my dreams and let out a slight breathy chuckle. Then my smile fell and I looked at him. "But guess what." I said, the anger and pain turning back "None of these things are happening. Because I wasn't enough for you." I stated.
"You are! You are totally enough. I was just angry and didn't know what to do. After our argument I was upset and- and it happened."
"Yes, what do we do when we're upset? We don't try to talk about it. No, we go and sleep with another girl." I said harshly.
"I'm so sorry, please forgive me, (y/n), I beg you."
"How am I supposed to trust someone, who betrayed me, Draco? How do you expect me to trust you?" My voice came out soft and as a whisper. "How am I supposed to love you, when all you did was sleep with someone else right after you got into an argument with me. How am I supposed to love you, when the person you cheated on me with is the girl, who always tried to steal you from me? The girl you told me not to worry about."
"I know and I'm deeply sorry. Please forg-"
"Have a great life, Draco." I said coldly and turned around.
"(y/n)" he whispered desparately and I tried to block it out, tried to not listen.
I just lost the boy I love and loved. I tried so hard to not go back and run. I did everything to not kiss him all over his face and cuddle him like I always did. I tried to not let my hand go through his soft hair and tell him how adorable he is, like I used to do. It took me everything.
I wiped my tears away and shut my eyes for a second. I walked faster, which caused the cold wind to blow in my face and dry my tears, as well as put my messy hair somewhat in order.
Somehow, I knew I wouldn't be able to love again. To trust again. But I tried my best to stay happy, with which I actually was going to fail.
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Not a happy end and I'm sorry for that :/
But hope you enjoyed it anyway :)
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