It had been eight months since my break up with my previous boyfriend. I hadn't gotten over it easily, but then there was Draco.
Draco and I hadn't known each other that much. We went to the same school, took the same classes, were in the same house, but I'd never really talked to him. Due to the constant family meetings, we got to know each other, which led to trusting each other. I told him everything about my old love and he told me about the stress and fear he felt.
I'd never seen him from this point of view. I always saw him picking on younger students or being harsh and mean. This was another side of him.
I was actually so over the boy, who had left, but what I wasn't over was the thought of actually being left.
The time I was in the relationship, I had a feeling of comfort. A feeling of somebody actually caring and loving. What happened? He left. He left like everyone else. For once I thought I found someone, who wouldn't leave. Who would stay. I thought wrong.
To be honest, I wasn't in love with the boy, I was in love with the thought of being loved. Of someone actually staying. That's what has got me. That's what had broken me. I was feeling down everyday. I was overthinking like crazy.
Since Draco is there, I don't feel like that anymore. At least after getting to know him.
I have to admit I have feelings for him. Damnit I'm in love. But my fear is much bigger. I can't go through the same thing again. He'll leave. He'll leave like everyone else did.
And if I wanted to forget about the fear of being left and heartbroken, being aware that nobody loves me, I couldn't. If I just could ignore it and love again. Forget about everything around and tell him I love him. But again, I can't.
We had winter break and were in his room in the Manor. I was laying on his bed as he was at his desk. He had his head in his hands.
"You ok?" I asked and he looked up.
"Huh? Yeah" He shook his head and I looked at him worried.
"Are you sure?" I asked and he sighed. I sat up and furrowed my eyebrows. "Draco, you can tell me everything."
He looked at me and stood up. He sat down beside me and looked me deeply in the eyes. "I want to tell you something."
I nodded and smiled, trying to encourage him.
"But I don't wanna lose you in any way." He shook his head and looked at me sadly.
"You won't lose me." I whispered. Why would I do that to someone? Leave. Why would I cause someone the same pain? I would never. I know how it is. I would never do that willingly.
He cleared his throat and took my hands in his. "I- I" he had a hard time spitting out the words.
I squeezed his hand, encouraging him. He looked at me. "I love you." He almost whispered.
I looked at him. How was I supposed to react? I'm happy, in love, suprised, scared. Which one to show?
"Draco-" I looked at him speechless.
"I know what you went through, I'm aware. But please believe me, I won't do that to you. I would never leave you, (y/n). I fell in love with you and I can't stop thinking about you." He told me as I looked at him.
My eyes began to tear up. "I wanna take you somewhere so you know I care, but it's so cold and I don't know where." I whispered. My eyes glassy, blurring my vision. He looked at me sadly. "I know what you go through, Draco. I know all the stuff you're involved in. And believe me, I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright. I'm just so tired to share my nights. I wanna cry and I wanna love, but all my tears have been used up on another love."
"(y/n)" He shook his head. "We can do this. You just have to believe in it. You've been through shit, just like me. We'll heal each other. I won't leave you." He said sadly.
"I'm just scared." I looked down as my voice cracked.
He lifted my head by holding my chin. "Don't be scared. Please." He looked at me.
I just wanted to melt under his gaze. His beautiful eyes looking in mine. Why did it have to be so difficult. I was so close to love, yet so far. How was that possible.
"I love you, Draco. But I don't really know. I- I" I didn't really know what else to say. I took a deep breath. "Nobody ever cared. Why would you do that? Why would you want to stay while everyone else left."
"Cause I love you." He whispered. "And if so. Everyone can leave. Who wants them? Isn't it unimportant if the only person you love, need and want is already there?"
I nodded.
He smiled "So we'll try it?"
I looked up at him. He was the only person I've ever craved this much to stay.
"We'll try." I smiled.
He cupped my cheeks and leaned in, leaving a kiss on my forehead and placing my head on his chest right after. He kissed my hair.
"I'll love you forever." He whispered, stroking my arm.
Love will heal us, hopefully.
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