Another month. I still don't know how I could last this long without him. Probably because I had Cedric, who was really understanding and helpful.
I sat in front of the black lake, the sky above me pitch dark.
"(y/n)" I heard and sighed annoyed.
"I get it, you follow me everywhere until I'll talk to you. But the lake? Really?" I stood up, facing him. "I hope you know I hate it to be here with someone else. I thought as my previous boyfriend, you would've known, that I prefer to be alone at night, Draco."
"I know, I know, but please listen." He asked and I crossed my arms, looking at the ground.
A little did I know I needed him, missed him, still loved him. As much as I tried to get over him, I couldn't.
"I- I'm infinitely sorry. I need you. I love you, (y/n). You seriously have to believe me."
"And why's that? I know too well that you only came back, cause you couldn't replace me, right, Draco?" I stepped froward, squinting my eyes and pointing with my index finger at him. "You weren't succesful and thought you still have me, right?"
He looked down a little embarrassed
"I knew it." I stepped back. I held my head and looked up. "How could I've ever thought you loved me?!" I whisper yelled and laughed sarcastically. "How?" I rubbed my face.
"I did and still do love you, (y/n)!"
"Liar."
"You have to believe me!" He said through gritted teeth and threw his hands in the air.
"I- I can't. How? How am I supposed to do so, after everything you've done?!"
"I- I'm so sorry. Just please forgive me." He whispered.
I sat back down, ignoring him. He sat down beside me and once again, I sighed annoyed.
"You can't just let it be, can you?" I whispered, my eyes closed as I felt him glaring at me.
"No." He whispered and I sighed, opening my eyes and playing with the grass. "(y/n)" he whispered again.
"For half a year, where were you?" I whisper asked, not looking up at him. "At days I wasn't okay at all, crying, where were you? Cedric was there for me. He cared about me." I looked up at him, looking him straight in the eyes. "I thought you loved me, cared about me. How comes I cry my eyes out and you're already over me, spending your days with other girls? See how the tables turn. Now you're the one to run after me, aren't you, Draco?" I looked back to the lake.
"I have no words for how deeply sorry I am." He said and I stood up.
"Whatever." I said and turned to walk away. "You know what" I turned around as he stood up. "I'm not mad at you because you broke my heart. I'm mad at you because you pretented you didn't." I said and turned back around, not waiting for him to respond
The next day, I walked up to Cedric and side hugged him. He was talking to his friends as I just stood there, playing with his fingers. We walked out of the great hall as their conversation ended.
"You good?" He asked.
"Hm? Yeah."
I was still thinking about yesterday. It was really hard to decide. My heart keeps on telling me to forgive him, while my mind has another opinion. The exact opposite.
"He's my ex. I have to get over him in some way. It's unecessary to keep on thinking about him, Cedric." I stated.
"You sure? Is that what your heart says?"
No.
"Yeah, I think so."
"I don't know Malfoy from your point of view, but if he's really the one, rethink your decision."
"You don't understand! That's the only thing I do!" I began to tear up.
"Oh, no. Don't- don't cry." He pulled me into his arms. "Maybe he was truly sorry. I mean, have you ever seen Malfoy apologizing to someone else, who isn't you? I mean, he must be loving you." He said and I chuckled.
"I don't know. What if- what if it isn't that way." I said as I threw my arms around his torso. "What if I'm getting myself into the same thing again? I'm exhausted of this. Of getting myself into that, what I've already been in once. I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay, Cedric." I said and he hugged me tighter.
"You deserve the world, that's for sure." He said and I smiled. "And no matter what happens, how bad your day is or whatever the reason is that made you upset, remember I'm always there. Remember I'll be there for you, no matter what."
I leaned my forehead against his chest. "Thank you so much." I whispered as he stroked my hair.
"I think you should forgive him and if he does that again, put you through all those things again I mean, drop him. You don't deserve it."
I smiled again.
"Now go and do what's needed to do." I hugged him one last time before going to look for Draco.
I looked everywhere, yet he was nowhere to be seen.
"Where is he?" I whispered to myself and walked outside. I took a deep breath and sighed exhausted.
"(y/n)?" I heard behind me and turned around quickly.
"I-"
I ran up to him and hugged him, interrupting his questioning. He hugged me back slowly, suprised.
As much as I didn't want to admit it, I loved him more than anything. I couldn't do anything else than hugging him. I needed him.
"I forgive you, but if you ever hurt me again, you can forget me. I'll never forgive you for putting me through this. I'm not joking, Draco. I still hate you for that, but I need you." I mumbled against his shoulder.
He hugged me tighter. "I'll never let that happen again." He whispered into my ear, kissing my cheek and letting his lips there.
I let it out, I cried. I buried my head in his chest and sobbed a little.
"I love you so much. I- I can't put it in words. I love you, (y/n) (y/l/n)."
"I love you, too, Draco."
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