"How do you want me to forget about it? You're barely with me. You're never with me anymore. You disappear and don't give me a reason why. I'm worried, I really am, cause you won't tell me what's wrong." I told Draco, my back against the wall as he stood in front of me, an angry look plastered on his face.
"Nothings is wrong." He spat. "And if you understood, you would mind your own business." He said annoyedly, his words stinging into my heart.
My mental health had been very bad lately. Him distancing himself from me adding up on it. I was doubting myself anyway, and that Draco would just ignore me and be colder than ever, kind of confirmed my overthinking and worries. It had gotten to the point where I either cried myself to sleep or couldn't sleep at all. My mind told me he didn't like me anymore, over and over again.
Now here I stood, in front of him. He didn't know anything about my state. About me getting mentally sick from all this- the sleepless nights, causing dark circles and bags under my eyes, the overthinking, the constant crying, and my mind just grounding me until I felt numb. Just emotionless and numb.
"I just wanted to-"
"Shut that, (y/n)!" He said, raising his voice and coming closer to me. "You're actually making it all harder for me! You're not helping, just annoying! That's all you are!" He shouted, grabbing my wrist and pinning it to the wall harshly. I winced in pain.
"You're- you're hurting me" I whispered, yet he didn't hear me clearly. I looked at him angrily, due to the words, that came out of his mouth.
Not being able to do anything, I avoided the eye contact, keeping my angry gaze on the other side of the room as his face was absolutely close to mine.
"You're just a waste of time" He continued, caught up in his anger.
After he let go of my wrist, I took a look at it and saw, that it was slightly bruised due to his strong grip. He looked at it guiltily as I rubbed it in pain.
That's when I lost it all after anything came back to my mind, reminding me in what kind of state my mental health was because of him and myself.
I closed my eyes, the visible anger turning into pure dejection as I furrowed my eyebrows.
I was feeling like my heart was sinking. I thought I was gonna black out any moment, I wished I had. My shoulders slightly up, a single quiet sob escaped my lips.
I felt cold hands on my cheeks and opened my now teary eyes, eyebrows still furrowed.
"Darling, I-" Draco looked at me in utter concern after he realized, he had been caught up in nothing else than his own anger. "I didn't mean to-" He whispered, but I shook my head.
"Don't darling me." I pleaded, exhausted of all of this. "Please don't do this." I said with a shaky voice. "I only wanted to have you by me. I was worried sick. And- and you have no idea what has been going on in here." I cried, voice breaking, hand lifted to point at my head. "I never wanted to end this all more than in the last days." I whispered, my eyes tearing up even more.
"No" he shook his head, tears glimmering in the corner of his eyes. "No, don't say that. I beg you, (y/n). I literally beg you, never- never think- that." He said lowly, his cold hands still cupping my cheeks.
I shrugged. "It's not fair. I don't want this."
And before I knew it, he had his strong arms wrapped around me desperately. Sobs escaping his lips as he buried his face in my shoulder.
"It's complicated. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, (y/n). But I cannot tell you anything-"
"Why?" I whispered.
"It'll do nothing but get you in danger. You wouldn't be safe-"
"And if so. If it is to be with you, I'd risk it."
"You don't understand, they'd kill you!" He said desperately.
"If it means I get to be with you-"
"Don't, (y/n)! Don't say that." He shook his head, tears in the corner of his eyes. " I am not worth it. I don't deserve that." L
I wrapped my arms around him. "Of course you do. You do deserve to be loved, Draco" I whispered against his chest and lifted my head to look him in the eyes. I cupped his cheeks. "You deserve the world." I whispered.
He tucked a hair strand behind my ear, his lower lip trembling shortly as he held back tears. "Just please know" he whispered, fingertips tracing behind my ear to my cheek, stroking it softly. "I had no choice."
I shook my head yes and he leaned down to place his forehead against mine.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
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Hope you liked it!
Also, sorry for the bad chapter name. I was not sure what to name it.
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