Cedric was the boy I've dated for almost a year. Then we broke up and he died in the triwizard tournament. I couldn't let that go easily, even though I'm in a happy relationship with Draco now.
Draco has helped me when I was sad. I felt guilty for still crying over Cedric. We could've ended better. He died after we broke up. I couldn't even tell him how thankful I was for him to be there for me. He was gone. Just like that.
But now I fell in love, yet the thought of Cedric dying didn't leave me. I felt infinitely guilty. The voice in me told me, it was my fault. Everything's my fault.
It was night and dark outside. I walked outside to just sit and watch the rain. I sat down and let the raindrops fall on me. I closed my eyes and breathed in, only to let it out shaky. I began to cry again.
I heard someone sit beside me and as soon as the cold hand pulled me to their chest, I knew it was Draco. He kissed my forehead and rubbed my back.
"It's not your fault." He comforted me and I nodded, even though the voice inside me told me otherwise.
"I'm sorry, Draco." I whispered as the side of my head was against his chest, his arm around my shoulder from the front and the other one stroking my hair.
"Don't be." He whispered back.
"I know you hear me when I cry. I try to hold it in at night, while you're sleeping next to me." I looked up to him, my head still against his chest and my eyes red from crying silently. "You do it so well, you've been so understanding." I smiled through my tears. "I'm putting you through more than one ever should. And I'm hating myself cause you won't admit that it hurts you." I buried my head back into his chest. "I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again, over him. I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again, 'stead of ghostin' him. We'll get through this, Draco. We'll past this. I'm a girl with a whole lot of baggage and I'm so sorry. But I love you."
"I love you, too, (y/n)." He said, his voice sounding as if he's the urge to cry. "You'll do it one day, (y/n). You'll forgive yourself one day, even though none of that what happened was your fault. You'll do this. We'll do this."
He took my face in his hands and kissed my forehead. He put my chin on his shoulder and kissed the back of my head, holding me tightly.
"Just remember, I love you forever."
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A short one.
So just if you haven't noticed, 'needy' and 'in my head' as well as 'ghostin' are kind of based on the songs of Ariana Grande, which are in her Ag5 album Thank u, next.
The meaning of the songs and the meaning behind them, the lyrics and all that-I kind of mix them up and turn it into this stuff.
Some of that what they say is the lyrics of the song, but of course they aren't singing it.
Just thought maybe you would want to know.
Hope you enjoyed!
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