Tw: mentioning of traumatic past, daddy issues (if that's a warning?)
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I walked in the hallway. No students around, just me hearing the storm outside. The wind lashing against the windows being the only noise heard.
I was on my way to my dorm, deep in thoughts.
Draco Malfoy. He was the boy I've begun talking to. The boy I had slight feelings for.
I really like him, I do. But my trust issues? All the issues I've got? My mental issues? Will he like me the way I actually am? The real me? Not the one I pretend to be, the happy and always smiling one.
I'm actually concerned about that. But my biggest concern is, do I actually love? Do I know what love is? I don't know.
I don't think I'm capable of love due to the issues I've got.
After my mother died, my dad was different. He wasn't like the one he used to be. My mother died as I was about six years old. After that, my father got violent. That's where my happiness began to fade away.
I got into the common room and there I saw him, sitting at one of the couches.
"Oh, hey (y/n)." He turned his head towards me and smiled as he heard me entering.
"Hey." I said and walked towards him.
"Go." He death stared a younger girl, who was sitting on another couch. She looked up a little confused and scared and stood up.
"No, no. You- you can stay." I said kindly and she smiled, but shook her head no.
"I'll just go. Have a nice day." She said and walked away.
"Was that necessary?" I raised my brow as I sat at the couch next to the one he was sitting at.
"For you, yes." He said and I looked over to him. He was staring at me and I looked away, bushing a little. "(y/n), I want you to know, that I care about you." He said slowly and I looked at him.
"I do too."
He smiled a little and I returned one.
-time skip to the next day-
We were sitting in the great hall, eating our food. I looked around and noticed, that Draco wasn't around.
I finished my food and walked to the common room, yet he wasn't there. I walked to his dorm slowly. I flinched slightly when I heard a loud noise. I approached his dorm and opened it slowly.
Draco had punched the wall and didn't notice me. He punched it again and I could hear his shaky breath. Then I heard him sob very slightly.
"Draco?" I whispered, tears already in my eyes and his head shot up.
"What- what are you doing here?" He asked as he wiped his tears away. He tried to hide the fact, that he was crying.
"Draco, I-"
"Go" he tried to lead me out.
"Draco."
"No, go."
I was against a wall and he in front of me. "Draco!' I said a little louder.
"I said go!' He shouted and slammed his hand on the wall, missing an inch beside my face. "Just go." He punched the wall again and made me flinch. "Leave, (y/n)! I don't fucking deserve you. Leave!"
My lower lip, as well as my hand began to shake. I held my head as my eyes widened, tears falling down. I couldn't stand, I slid down the wall as Draco's face softened, realizing what he just did. Memories flashed into my mind. Memories of my father. Bad memories. Absolutely bad ones. My lips were parted as I tried to breathe.
