A Closed Window [An SVU Fan Fic]

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"Huh?" Olivia asked, as she looked at the woman standing in front of her.

"Do you still love him? Because if in the future that you might rip him away from me... I need to know. I don't want to start a family with him, for him to only run right back to you." Pippa spoke loudly and with more confidence than when they had started this conversation.

"Pippa, I don't want him." Olivia replied as she awkwardly crossed her arms over her stomach. There was no hiding the fact that Trevor and Olivia had kids together, but the fact she was pregnant wasn't really helping her in this situation. Pippa was going to think what she wanted to think, even if Olivia told her otherwise.

"That wasn't my question, Olivia. Do you love him or not?" Pippa huffed.

"I don't love him anymore, Pippa. After what he did to me and my children, I don't think that I could love him ever again. Okay? Does that make you happy?!" Olivia spat, as she grew annoyed with her ex's fiancee.

"Don't get pissy with me!" Pippa yelled.

"You are the one that came to interrogate me about something you shouldn't even be worried about! If he still loves me, then you should take this up with him and not me! Now get out of my station house!" Olivia screamed.

Pippa shook at the harshness of Olivia's voice, so she quickly packed up and ran from the locker room. Olivia raked her fingers through her hair before slowly moving to a bench and lowering her swollen frame onto it.

She couldn't believe what had just happened and how Pippa thought that coming here was the best way to deal with this situation.

"Liv?" Fin asked, as he opened the door and slowly walked in. He had seen Pippa run out with tears streaming down her cheeks, and he didn't know if Olivia was the same way.

"Is she really gone?" Olivia whispered, and Fin nodded as he approached her.

"Yeah, she's long gone. She pretty much sprinted from the squadroom. So, what happened?" Fin asked, as he sat beside her and wrapped his arm around her body. Olivia leaned into Fin before speaking.

"She asked me if I still loved Trevor... I might have kinda lied when I said that I didn't love him anymore, because I have four kids with him and I love him because of the kids, but nothing else. She said that he still loves me and she's worried that I'll just come in and steal him. But I don't want someone as toxic as him anymore. I'm happy where I am, and I don't need him." Olivia breathed.

"Maybe it's time to return these." Fin spoke, as he reached out and tugged open Olivia's locker and pointed at the only thing in the bottom of it. 

"Fin, I was going too... but I just couldn't." Olivia whimpered.

"Maybe now is the time to return them. I'll cover for you."

"Fin-"

"Go, baby girl. Tie up this loose end before something changes your mind."

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Olivia hesitantly went to Trevor's office. She went straight down the hall again and knocked lightly on his open door. Trevor looked over at the door and his eyes went wide. He quickly finished his call before standing.

"Olivia? What are you doing here?" He questioned. 

"Uh, Pippa and I talked today. And to prove to you and her that I'm completely done... I need to return these." Olivia breathed.

"Liv, I didn't send her over to talk to you or anything. She-"

"Trev, please just shut up." Olivia replied weakly.

"Okay." Trevor whispered.

Olivia walked into the office and shut the door. She wanted to make sure that the partners didn't witness yet another shit show.

"I have kept these for way too long, Trevor. So I'm giving you these back so that Pippa knows that I don't love you anymore and that I don't want to be with you anymore. Okay? So take them and do whatever you want with them, because they will never be given to our kids." Olivia breathed, before passing the box to Trevor. 

He hesitantly opened the box before seeing Olivia's engagement ring and wedding band. A lot had happened with Olivia giving them back when they first broke up, to getting them back from Trevor again, and now she was giving them back to him once again.

"You could have pawned them or sold them... then you would have had some extra money." Trevor spoke awkwardly.

"I don't need extra money... I'm good. I can still give the kids exactly what they want and need, and the babies will have diapers and clothes and cribs. They won't want for anything..." Olivia breathed.

Trevor frowned as he watched Olivia start to back up and move towards the door.

"Are they getting my last name?" Trevor asked, and Olivia froze before nodding slowly.

"Y-yeah. I just have to come up with their first and middle names now." Olivia replied with a weak laugh.

"Do you want me-"

"Trevor, we are done. You need to reassure Pippa and make sure that she knows that you love her and are completely there for her. That you love her more than anyone else in this world. You need to move on, and if you don't... then you won't allow me to either. So please, marry her. Give her lots of babies... and forget about me and our children. It will probably be for the better anyway. We just don't fit together anymore. We are no longer puzzle pieces." Olivia whispered.

She was fighting off tears, and she hated that Trevor saw her like that.

And when Trevor moved towards her and hugged her tightly, she let him for only a few moments before she stepped away and opened the door.

"Take care, Trevor. And make sure that you don't hurt Pippa like you hurt me. Because if you do it twice, the women of Earth will completely abandon you and label you are trash. Do you understand?" Olivia sniffled.

"I promise to not hurt her... I just wish that I never hurt you either."

"Yeah, me too."