A Closed Window [An SVU Fan Fic]

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Once Olivia left for her appointment, Trevor didn't know what to do with Robbie. He kinda just stared at his baby for the first hour, before Robbie cried and needed his diaper changed and he was a little hungry.

"Okay... let's see if we can do this." Trevor sighed, as he scooped his son up as he whimpered and cried.

Trevor went into Robbie's room and gathered the stuff to change his diaper. He hadn't changed a single diaper since Robbie was brought home from the hospital, so he was rusty. Especially since the last diaper he changed was when his now seven-year-old was a baby and since Lucy had helped out since Olivia went back to work.

When Trevor finally got Robbie undressed, he awkwardly changed his son's diaper. He kept telling Robbie that he was sorry if he fucked up at all.

"There. Done." Trevor sighed softly, as he lifted Robbie up and snuggled him close. Robbie settled once he was resting against his father's body, and his breaths turned into weak hiccups.

It was like that for the first few hours. Robbie would cry, and Trevor would figure out some way to calm his son down. He eventually wrapped Robbie in one of Olivia's shirts, and he calmed down.

"Little guy, you gotta work with me... act like you are comfortable with me. Then maybe your Mama will let me off the hook." Trevor sighed, as he looked into his son's greenish blue eyes.

But as Trevor said that, he realized that pretending to love and care for his son wasn't going to work. He had to truly love and care for him if he ever wanted to be in a real relationship with his wife.

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Olivia arrived at her appointment and got her blood drawn before sitting in a exam room. She swung her legs off the edge of the bed as she waited and waited for Dr. O'Neal to show up and talk to her.

"Good news." Dr. O'Neal smiled, as she came into the room with Olivia's lab report.

"Are they still viable?" Olivia asked weakly as she hesitantly placed her hand to her stomach. She could feel a difference, even if she really hadn't noticed it since Trevor told her this morning.

"They are still viable. Your levels are perfect for ten weeks."

"Good... that's really good." Olivia sniffled, as she looked down at her hands before sighing softly.

"Is everything okay, Olivia? You seem off." Dr. O'Neal spoke softly, as she sank down onto the stool in front of Olivia.

"A lot of stuff is happening... Trevor and I are fighting over the babies and even Robbie. We haven't slept in the same bed in weeks and I'm just scared to bring two more babies into a home where their father won't love them." Olivia sniffled. It didn't take long before she was full on sobbing and shaking like crazy.

Dr. O'Neal frowned as she reached out and gently rubbed her patient's back. She hated to see Olivia in the same state as she was in when Robbie's heart condition was discovered.

"Everything will settle before these two are born. I promise." Dr. O'Neal spoke softly, and Olivia shook her head.

"Nothing will be the same ever again. I don't even know if Trevor loves me anymore." Olivia swallowed hard.

"Oh, Olivia... I have seen the way you two have looked at each other. He loves you."

"That was when I was pregnant with Quintin... and then for the first few months of my pregnancy with Robbie. Then after that we really haven't been in love. Or if we have, it's been very strained." Olivia breathed softly.

"Have you talked to him about this?" Dr. O'Neal mused, and Olivia nodded.

"Of course I have... that led me to leaving him. Now we are seperated and I honestly have no idea where our marriage is going."

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Olivia was exhausted after her appointment, so she went home instead of going to work. 

"Liv?" Trevor asked, as he heard the front door shut. Olivia moved slowly away from the door as her husband left the kitchen with Robbie in his arms.

"Hey... how are you two doing?" Olivia asked weakly.

"We are good. This little guy just took a bottle and is on his way to lay down. What are you doing home? I thought you were going to head into work."

"Y-yeah... I was. But I'm just too tired to work today... I can take over if you need me too." Olivia spoke, as she moved to where her husband and son stood. She smiled weakly when she saw that Robbie was wearing her t-shirt.

"I have him. You should go take a nap."

"I'm fine." Olivia frowned deeply. She took her baby into her arms before holding him close. She covered his little cheeks in kisses.

"Liv, I can put Robbie down. Then maybe we could talk?"

"Talk about what? Because we have yelled a lot, and it has gotten us into more trouble then did us any good."

"He's awesome." Trevor spoke, as his wife walked away.

"Who is?" Olivia frowned deeply.

"Robbie."

"Do you really think that our little guy is awesome?"

"I have only spent a few hours with him, but they have been amazing. I got to cuddle him and feed him. We even played together..."

"I'm glad that you finally realized that our child is amazing."

"All of them are."

"I still can't believe you when you say that."

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Olivia laid Robbie down for his nap before taking a shower and trying to figure out if she could lay in bed and nap until Quintin got off the bus.

"Liv, how are the babies?" Trevor asked, as he walked into the bedroom he hadn't shared with his wife for awhile.

"What?"

"How are our babies?"

"They are viable... Dr. O'Neal thinks that I should be able to keep this pregnancy." Olivia breathed.

"Good. And I'll clean out my office to give them a room."

"You don't have to do that."

"I have to do that, Olivia. For our children."

"I don't know why all of a sudden you love our kids. It's like you were fighting me tooth and nail... when all you could have did was tell me that you loved our son until you truly did... Lie to me like you have our whole marriage."

"Olivia, please forgive me. Please."

"I'm not ready for that yet... especially since I don't know if you'll change your mind and hate our son again. Or our twins. Or me..."