𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐏𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝟐𝟎𝟎𝟎 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 | 𝐀𝐎𝐓

Chapter 11

On a quiet, cold night, I woke up with Levi sitting beside my bed and with a hand resting on my forehead. That day I couldn't get up, and I had felt my senses dizzying me off and on every 3 hours when I could hear noises or someone coming to see how I was doing, my allergy had gotten the better of me, mostly because I was sleeping in a cellar. "Levi...?" I was feeling too weak to control what I mumbled out, but I do know that his expression made me panic, it was the first time I called him out by his name, something completely restricted when he's my superior.

His eyes showed a different emotion as he kept caressing my forehead, and felt his hand freeze before tightening it and dropping it to his side. "Why'd you suddenly wake up?" He questioned, and I turned to my side to take a better look at him. "I can feel when people stare at me..." I simply said, and I had the feeling that he took that the bad way. "How's Eren?" I tried to change the subject as fast as I could, keeping in mind to think before blurting out something inconvenient. "Hange is keeping him with an experiment." Again...? Every 4 days they've been putting too much pressure on Eren and I had to break into his cell to make sure he sleeps well, but I don't think I'll be capable of that tonight.

I tried shutting my eyes to sleep, but I couldn't ignore the fuzzy sensation in my chest when Levi stares at me as he was doing at these very moments. "You... Are looking at me as if you think I'm gonna die..." His grey eyes averted at that, and I knew I hit the bullseye. "I'm a monster, remember...? There's no way out of this prison for me..." I concluded.

"There are times when I get the feeling that there's someone else inside you, I don't know if that's the Titan... But it's something that I can't let my guard down." I was confused by where this was coming from, but I didn't interrupt him. "I'm not going to change how I behave towards you but don't go off deciding your worth on your own. This is the rule for everyone in the Scouts." He did tell me that no matter what we would be treated as monsters, however, I'm not allowed to insult myself?

"For as much as I respect that, Captain... You're here with me when you should be with Eren... So please, even if I know how little you worry about me, at least... Help him..." Tiredness took over me again, and I shut my eyes slowly before losing consciousness, but not without feeling a hand on my cheek.

Slowly, I opened my eyes and sighed softly when I saw the blue sky. Was that a dream?

I couldn't concentrate in my surroundings, my head is still dizzy. "Reiner, (Y/N) is awake...!" I recognized Bertholdt's voice, I turned my head to the side and saw him slightly nervous. His hand was on my forehead, but he had taken it away as soon as he could. "Thought you would never wake up. How do you feel?" Reiner asked, but I kept my mouth shut and sat unhurriedly. Looking around, I found Ymir wide awake and Eren still sleeping, without arms. Reiner exhaled when he realized I wasn't going to answer. I felt empty, strangely unafraid of the situation at hand. It's a first. Maybe because I was unconscious not long ago, or perhaps that I know what's going to happen, most likely.

"When you said that you don't want to see us get buried, were you serious?" Reiner suddenly spoke, startling me from my thoughts. I looked up into those deep golden eyes. "I never lie about something like that." I said, and he hummed. I do hate them, but probably not as much as I should. I knew how things were going to finish, of course I'm surprised and I'd be lying if I said I'm not a little fearful of them, after all, I'm a captive without powers or weapons. I took off the Scouts' jacket and let it fall to the distant ground, I almost forgot we were on a thick branch in the Titan Forest.

Now only wearing my black clothes, I noticed Bertholdt staring at me awkwardly, glancing away slightly when I turned my head to him. He looks so morose and regretful and I should make sure that he gets executed... I can't do that, not only because it's not supposed to go like that, but even knowing their real identity I had managed to help them when they needed along with the others. It brought tears to my eyes, executing 16-year-olds wasn't in my planning and that thought made me sunk, the more I think about it the more I realize how cruel the world is.