My Pups Shield Me

CH. 21

➡➡➡(Possible)Trigger Warning: Depression, Dark Thoughts, Alluding(?) to suicide!!!!!

*Time Skip 3 Weeks*

Sometimes waking up is a battle. It's something that you know you have to do. Something that you have to face and get through in order to survive. Something that is so monumentally hard sometimes. An-and sometimes you don't want to go to battle. You don't want to fight for the need to survive. Y-you don't see the point anymore or maybe you do and you just don't care.

For Marie, today is one of those many mornings.

She lays in bed starring at the ceiling watching as the light peeking through the blinds slowly moves across it. She's been awake for 3 hours. No motivation to get up. She was barely even able to open her eyes. She knows she should get up. She needs to let the pups out to potty. She need to set out more food and water for them. She should probably shower. She definitely needs to eat and drink something. B-but what if she just didn't. What if she just continues to lay her? Would she slowly waste away? Is that what's already happening and she just doesn't realize it? She should really be getting up now. What would the pups do if she did? What about Jess? Maybe should would use the spare key to come in and get the pups. Yeah Jess would never have the heart to just return them or give em away. You need to get up. Jess should still have her list of what makes the pups comfortable. How Seth likes to surround himself with blankets when he sleeps. How Roman doesn't like to get too excited in fear that he'll hurt her accidentally, so he still plays softly like he's still actually a puppy. How Dean gets anxious without his plant toy. Get Up. The picture she took of them all at the park is supposed to be arriving as a canvas print in the mail today. I-I want... I want to see it. GET UP!!!

Marie gives one last sigh before shaking her head and sitting up. Just as she does she looks down to see all 3 of her pups sitting by or in Seth's case, on her legs. They must have been whining for her for a while now. She can see the utter sadness in Seth's movements, the questioning tilt of Roman's head, and the anxious gawning Dean is doing on his precious plant toy.

"Hey boys. Momma's sorry. I shouldn't have made you worry huh? " She asked as she reached out to scratch them behind the ears. "Well let's get you boys fed and out side. " She got up to head out the door with the pups quietly following after her.

*An hour 1/2 before:*

"Rome, what's wrong with her?" Seth asked as he continued to pay at her leg. "Yeah. She's just been laying her for like ever! I'm hungry!!!" Dean whinned. "Yeah so am I!" Seth barked in agreement. Roman sighed, "I don't know. I mean she's sorta acteted this way before but never this long. She won't move or anything! I even tried nibbling on her fingers and she hates getting drooled on! She didn't whine or anything!" He felt helpless yet again as his human layed barely moving. He would of thought she had died like his previous old human idf he couldn't see her chest rising and falling every few seconds. "I think we should just stay here with her. Maybe she just needs us to be here for her." He suggested as he took up a spot by her left leg. Seth nodded eagerly before hopping on top of her legs. Dean sat there looking back and forth between his human and his pack brothers. Finally he huffed before mosing over to lay down on her right side.

They sat there quietly. Occasionally one of them would speak a question or two before falling silent once again. Finally after what felt like forever, their human began to move. They watched as she slowly sat up. Each letting out a few whines of worry (though Dean would NEVER admit it). They happily waged their tails as she reached out to scratch behind their ears. "Hey boys. Momma's sorry. I shouldn't have made you worry huh? Well let's get you boys fed and out side."

A/N: So I know it's been like FOREVER since I've last updated and for that I am sooo so sorry!!! I've been going through a lot of stuff between my graduate classes, setting up my small business and going through Pandemic Depression in general. I'm gonna try and do better from now on but I will be honest with you all that unfortunately I am unable to make any honest guarantees. Like I said though, I'll still try and do my best to update again as soon and as often as I can.

Thank you,

-T