Some Say (Jean Kirstein X Reader)

Chapter Nineteen

Jean and I sit away from everyone else as Levi interrogates a captain from the Military Police. The idiot keeps opening his mouth meaning Levi just ends up beating him even more.

Jean's fingers trace down the side of my arm but he's not looking at me. His eyes are focused into the darkness surrounding us. I tuck my body up closer to his, embracing the heat that radiates from him.

"How did you do it?" He questions quietly.

"Do what?" I answer looking up at him.

His eyes move to meet mine, filled with confusion and hurt. "Kill a person."

Lacing my fingers through his, I look away from him, "Trust me, I didn't do it without remorse. I just had a choice to make. Their lives or ours. I can't lose anyone else, Jean."

He places a finger under my chin, tilting it upwards to look back at him. "You did something I couldn't bring myself to do and I love you for that. You saved us."

"There is something deeply scarring about watching the light leave a person's eyes," I say. "I've seen multiple people at the hands of titans but it's not quite the same."

Jean presses his lips against the top of my head. "You did what you had to do. I'm here for you. Let's just hope you don't have to do that again." He mumbles against my forehead.

Sasha and Connie jump to their feet, not far from us. They point out into the thick of the grass and bodies can be seen moving through it. Jean and I split apart, arming ourselves.

"We're surrounded," Sasha says.

Two people emerge from the grass, guns aimed. Hanji and Moblit relax at the sight of us. They really are a sight for sore eyes.

"Are we glad to see you all." Hanji smiles. "We come bearing some good news."

Moblit and her explain to us what has been going on in our absence. She hands Levi a piece of paper and we gather around him as he reads it out loud.

"We are free of all charges." He announces.

Jean grabs me around the waist, swinging me into the air. The others jump and cheer. He brings me back down, landing a kiss on my lips. Right in front of Levi with no hesitation. I bring my arms around his neck as I kiss him back.

A whistle comes from behind us, we pull apart remembering where we are. Hanji has a loving look on her face as she watches us. Levi shakes his head but makes no comment.

"Jeez, you two need to go get a room." Connie remarks.

"Over my dead body," Levi says as he moves over to Hanji. "What's the plan from here?"

Celebrations are cut short when Hanji explains that she thinks she may know where Historia and Eren are being kept. Before we know it, we are heading out once again. To face who knows what lies ahead of us. My mind and body are beyond exhausted but there is no time to stop and rest now, if only we had known what was coming our way we could have prepared ourselves.

Jean and I ride our horses side by side. We have fallen back behind the cart. The air is thick with tension, knowing we need to get to Historia and Eren as soon as possible.

Hanji, Levi, Armin, and Mikasa talk up ahead. It's one of those moments that I know I should be listening in to, that at some point my opinion will be asked for but I can't seem to focus my attention on their conversation. A dull nausea sits in the lower part of my stomach and I can't seem to shake it.

"Are you alright? You don't look too good." Jean asks from beside me.

I give him a small reassuring smile. "There's just a lot going on at the moment and I just feel a little overwhelmed, I guess."