Some Say (Jean Kirstein X Reader)

Chapter Twenty Seven

I sip away at my cup of tea, reading over the newspaper in front of me. It has taken a while but I'm now able to read their language. I should say my language really but that would be admitting that I am actually one of them.

It's been four years.

Four long years since I was taken away from everything I knew and loved. After my confusion and loss had lessened, I tried to fight back. Tried to escape this place but no matter where I turned, someone was always watching me.

I had no idea where I was, which way I would have to run to return to my home. Maps were hidden away from me and even if I did see one, I had no idea what it said at the time. Everything was kept hush hush from me. I never knew what was going on even with the war that was happening.

Eventually, I gave up.

Well, that's what I led them to believe anyway.

Cheering from outside my window indicates that they have returned. The so-called Warriors have come back alive from the war...a pity to be honest. I rise to my feet and move over to the window.

Outside my suspicions are right. Zeke and Reiner's faces are the first my eyes lock onto. They are embraced by family members, bright and proud looks cover everyone's face.

The Survey Corps was never welcomed back this way. No thank you for fighting for humanity, no thank you for risking our lives. Yet, these murders are praised and loved by all.

I sigh quietly, leaning against the window frame. I watch the people below. My mind thinks back to that day. The one where it had all gone wrong.

That last final look in Jean's eyes as I was carried away and there was nothing he could do about it. What would have happened if things had gone right for us? Where would we be today? Would he still love me?

A light tug on the side of my skirt takes me away from my thoughts. Looking down, a small child is latched onto my leg. Big golden eyes peer up at me with wonder and fascination.

Never in this lifetime did I think I would have a child. Especially on how I had been raised and the lifestyle of being in the Survey Corps. So, when a doctor in Marley confirmed I was pregnant, I had gone into shock.

Sixteen. Alone. In a foreign place. Scared, did not even cover how I felt. I was merely a child myself. Fighting for my life, fighting to get myself back to the people that loved me.

The last little part of Paradis that had come with me.

"Is uncle Zeke home?" His small voice asks.

A smile rises to my lips. "I think so, do you want to go down and see him?"

"Yes, please." His face lights up and his small hand takes mine.

My hatred for Zeke still runs very deep, I will never forgive him or Reiner for what they have done. No matter how they try to justify themselves, they took innocent lives. End of story.

But, on the other hand. Zeke allowed me to stay with him even before I discovered I was pregnant. He didn't treat me any different from the other titan shifters and answered all my questions truthfully. He didn't try to hide anything from me or soften the blow on sensitive subjects. He was real with me.

Outside Zeke hugs his grandparents as we patiently wait off to the side. His eyes move over to us and he waves us over. The little boy takes off, dragging me along with him.

"Someone's excited to see me." Zeke laughs, lifting the boy into his arms.

No matter how much destruction and death Zeke has caused, it always surprises me how gentle he is with my son. I know his own childhood was not a happy one with Grisha unlike Eren's life with their father.