Some Say (Jean Kirstein X Reader)

Chapter Eight

Opening the door to Levi's office, I find him sitting at his desk with a cup of tea in his hand as he reads over some reports. His eyes slowly move over to me and motions to the seat in front of him.

I take a seat and wait for him to say something, anything. He places his cup down and tidies his paperwork before standing.

"Did you bring your jacket?" he asks.

I give him a look of confusion. "No, was I meant to?"

He rolls his eyes and grabs one on his and throws it to me. "Follow me, brat."

I jump to my feet. "Are you going to make me dig my own grave?" I ask.

He gives me an unimpressed look as he walks out. I chase after him, matching his pace as we walk out of the Survey Corps barracks. All is silent between us as we walk into the town, windows illuminated with candles as many people start to turn in for the night.

"Where are we going?" I question him.

"You'll see." He says keeping his head focused ahead.

I want to complain and groan as I would usually do but I'm already in enough trouble. I do not need to push my luck any more than I have.

"You're quiet for once."

"It's the impending fear of what you're going to do to me."

He stops and looks at me. "I wish I had known that years ago."

I mock laugh at him. "I don't think I have screwed up this badly, to be honest."

He carries on walking. "You haven't screwed up."

"What? You looked like you were about to murder Jean and me."

A look of satisfaction crosses his face. "We will be discussing that but I need to speak with you regarding another matter."

Levi comes to stop at the top of a building overlooking the city. He sits down and motions for me to sit next to him. We look out over the city in silence for a moment just taking in the view and how peaceful it is.

"Why did you bring me here?" I ask, resting my chin on my knee.

"I needed to get away from everyone."

"So you decided to hang out with me? I thought I would be the last person you'd want to spend time with."

"You're the most human out of all of them. You actually remind me of an old friend I used to have."

"Used to?"

"She was killed by a titan when we were forced to join by Erwin, along with another close friend of mine."

I turn my head and look at him. "I've never heard you talk about them before."

He looks away from me. "I don't like discussing this with others. It brings back too many painful memories."

"You don't have to if you don't want to, I'm familiar with the pain."

"I only brought them up because you are like family to me like they were."

"Erwin, Hanji and you are family to me and I can't even comprehend for a moment what it would be like to suddenly not have any of you no longer in my life."

He nods. "And that's the way I feel about you. I don't want to see you end up like Isabel and Furlon."

I place my hand on his arm. "I won't make promises that are out of my control but I will do my best. I will fight."

"That's the thing, I haven't been seeing that will and determination much lately. Since Kirstein and you have been dancing around each other."

My eyes drift back to the city. "I know what you mean but Jean and I know that humanity comes first."

"Could you give his life for humanity?"

"Could you give my life for humanity? Could you let me die to save it all?" I ask, now looking at him.

He looks back at me. "No."

"Then that answers your question. That doesn't just stand for Jean though, that's you, Erwin, Hanji, my friends. Well, maybe not Reiner after the shit he pulled tonight."

A small almost missable laugh comes from Levi. "That's on you. You were both in a public area."

"Fair point but he didn't have to call you over."

Levi gets up, holding his hand down to me. "We all know now so..."

I take his hand and he pulls me up. "It was bound to happen sooner or later. There was a lot of sexual tension between us." I joke.

"Don't ever let me hear those words out of your mouth again or I will use soap on you." He threatens.

I hold my hands up. "Okay, good call. I don't want to discuss this topic with you anyway, that's what Hanji is for. Maybe, Mike, he's a good listener."

He shakes his head. "How that Kirstein boy became interested in you, baffles me. You should head back, Hanji has more early morning training for you and the other brat."

"It's all my charm of course." I pat him on the shoulder. "Thank you, I think I really needed that chat."

"I would say anytime but I don't want you getting the wrong idea."

I chuckle. "I will always be around to annoy you, Levi. Trust me." I wink as I run off back to the barracks.