The Boy I Once Knew | Cobra Kai Hawk/Eli

Chapter 22

"You're making me choose between my Sensei and my girlfriend. I shouldn't have to choose!" He yells quietly.

"I shouldn't have to make you. You told me karate won't change you."

"It's not! I'm just learning the right way."He looks down at his feet.

"Yea well sometimes the right way is actually the wrong way," I mumble. "I never chose Johnny. He was there before Kreese and I never liked Kreese."

"Come on Lillian. I'll keep you a secret from them"

"A secret? I don't want to be anyone's secret! I should be allowed to go out with my boyfriend without being worried some Sensei is going to throw a fit. You haven't even talked to me"

"Then I'll tell him. I'm sorry baby. Part of it was Sensei and the other part well I have no excuse." His eyes meet mine. He pulls me into a hug wrapping his arms around my waist. I lay my head onto his chest.

"Do you actually love me?" I mumble into his shirt. He lifts my face into his hands staring into my eyes.

"Of course I love you. I love everything about you" he says.

Part of me wants to believe it but some of me doesn't. He would choose karate over me. I do love him but if he's listening to someone else on how to run our relationship then maybe it shouldn't continue.

"Here let's go." He says grabbing my hand and walking to the other cobras. I keep my mouth shut afraid of what they are going to say. I've always liked assface but Rickenberger not so much.

"Look at who decided to finally show up" Tory chimes in. She mumbles something to Rickenberger, his face turns red. I could see them together.

I grin at what she says. "You coming back to the dojo?" Assface asks.

"Not of right now, I'm not" They roll their eyes at me and continue to eat their pizza.

"They're going to walk around with us if you don't mind Lillian" Tory says to me. My smile fades. I thought it would just be me and her why is she all of a sudden switching on me.

"Yea that's fine" I say excitedly. Hawk smiles at my response and kisses my forehead. I don't want to make any of them upset or anything so I stay quiet.

They're walking together and I'm standing beside Hawk on the left. My chest starts to hurt and I feel like I'm going to be sick to my stomach.

"Oh hey, I'm gonna be right back" I tell Hawk.

"Where are you going? Want me to come with?" He asks. I shake my head no.

"You guys can keep walking. I'll catch up"

"Uh ok," he says confused. I walk away and go to the bathroom. I close the stall door and throw up into the toilet. My stomach has been so week the past week, it doesn't stop. I don't know if it's the chemo or just me being sick overall, but it's tiring. My doctor doesn't know neither does my mom and I plan for it to stay like that. I know my mom wants to do everything for me to be healthy but I'm never going to be fully healthy. I'll always be known as the girl who had cancer or something. Never just a teenager.

After 20 minutes of being sick I finally leave the bathroom. I walk onto the beach and sit in front of the water. It's nice to be alone, the waters
calming. I pull my knees to my chest and lay my head on top of them.

I have so many thoughts running, it's hard to keep up. I feel like Hawk and I aren't working, I want to talk to Tory, I can't even talk to Aisha since her parents made her move after the fight.