The Boy I Once Knew | Cobra Kai Hawk/Eli

Chapter 36

I'd be lying to myself if I said I wasn't upset from breaking up with Hawk. I've been throwing up since he left last night. My throat is dry, my head is pounding, and my chest feels like I'm being stabbed. He was my best friend, my go-to, and now it's all gone. Demetri was first and now it's him, I don't have anyone. It's nine in the morning and I'm still sitting on the floor in the bathroom. It just won't stop, it's all the thought of last night and just overall yesterday.

Someone knocks on the door, "Honey, are you ok?" shit its Mom.

I wipe my mouth with a towel, stand up and open the door. "I'm ok. My meds are just making my stomach a little bit upset." I keep my head down trying to keep her from seeing my red puffy eyes and tear-stained cheeks. I walk into my room and she follows behind me.

"You want to go out to lunch today with Eli's mom and me? She would love to see you." She asks and stands at the door to my bedroom. She tilts her head at me and walks right in front of my face, her hand reaching out and lifting my head up. I ignore eye contact with her as much as I can but I can feel the worry that just took over her.

"I'm ok, mom. You guys can go out and have fun. I think I'm just going to rest for a little bit today". I send her a quick smile and lay back down on my bed. I can feel her presence still behind me but she's quiet.

"Ok. Text me if you need anything or change your mind" She says softly, rubbing my back with her hand as she stutters it away and walks out the door. I know she worries about me but doesn't want to push it and I thank her for that. And with the medication, I have to take some of the side effects are depression or sadness and she always worries about it.

I go on Netflix and just scroll through all the sad movies. They need to up their selection, you can only watch the same movies over and over so many times. I decide on Outer Banks, even though it's not one of the sad movies, it's still one of my favorites. I haven't checked my phone once since last night, my wallpaper stills him, everything is still him. I've seen it coming, breaking up with him over something like this but I was still hoping it wouldn't. I'm afraid to see texts from him or our pho-

My thoughts are interrupted by my bedroom door slamming open. My eyes lay on an angry Johnny Lawrence standing in the doorway.

"What the fuck!" I yell at him.

"QUIET!" He yells and I let out an annoyed breath. How many times do I have to say I hate when he does that. He thinks it's like his signature thing.

"What the hell do you think you're doing? Just laying in bed, feeling guilty about your breakup with Hawk" He snaps walking up close to my face.

"How the hell do you-" He interrupts me.

"I have my ways. Now get your ass out of bed and come with me cause you aren't going to lay here and cry all day like a girl" He walks around my room picking up my medic bag and walks out. How the hell is he going to tell me not to cry like a girl when he just gets drunk when he's upset about something. Typical Johnny Lawrence.

I groan and finally hop out of bed, walking as slow as I can to pick out an outfit. I throw on a white crop top with black sweat pants. It's hot as hell outside but I'm upset so I'll wear what I want. If that even makes sense.

I walk out to Johnny roaming through my mom's liquor cabinet.

"Really?" I ask annoyed... He laughs and continues to roam through it. He stands up with nothing in his hands and just shuts the cabinet door. That's unlike him to not take anything. Normally I just let him take one bottle or a shot when he stops by so for him not to take anything is very unusual.

"If I can't have any liquor. Then you can't either"

"Your mom never has anything good anyway. Now, let's go" He says and opens the front door. I follow behind him and get into the front seat of his car.

"Are you going to tell me where we're going?" I ask him.

"Back to my place. Miguel just got out of the hospital and we're going to help him use his legs again" Holy shit, I've been so wrapped in my own world with hawk and me that I just completely forgot about Miguel. I knew he was supposed to get out this week but I haven't thought about it once.

"So are you going to tell me what happened between you and Hawk orrr?" He drags out.

I roll my eyes, "Nope. Mind your business".

He laughs, "I could but what would life be without any drama. Besides it's hard to not think about it when you're just sitting in my car, pouting about losing your boy toy." he pauses, "I mean really look at you."

"Fuck off, Johnny! He wasn't my boy toy. You have no room to talk here. Carmen hates you because of what happened to Miguel So instead of trying to get in the middle of my relationship, focus on your own!" I snap. After saying that it keeps him quiet, surprisingly.

"Exactly, shut up," I say and he just shakes his head, heading over to Miguel's door. I follow behind him shortly but keeping a distance.

"How did you know about her and me?" He asks quietly.

"Did you really think my mom wouldn't tell me? Also, I'm quite hurt you didn't tell me." I tilt my head at him. He groans and walks straight into their apartment without knocking. I hope he knows this isn't his place. Miguel's laying back down on a kitchen table with some dude moving his legs.

"What the fuck is going on here" I mumble to myself.

"Oh hey, Lillian and Sensei. My mom gets free physical therapy from work, we'll be done soon" Miguel assures us and we both just stand there and nod. I have to hold Johnny back a couple of times before he says something he shouldn't especially with Carmen in the room.

Finally, after Johnny leaves for a while probably to get a beer, I wait outside their apartment for Miguel to be done.

"Hey. You ok?" Miguel pops out of nowhere.

"Oh hey! Yea, sorry I just have a headache." Honestly, I haven't really thought about my head hurting until he asked. I just ignored it because It's probably just from me crying all night and being sick to my stomach. Oh shit, scratch that. I forgot to take my meds this morning. It shouldn't be anything to worry about, missing one day won't hurt.

"You don't look good. Did you take your meds today?" He asks. I know he's just trying to be nice and all but I wish when people saw something wrong with me, the first thing they wouldn't ask would be about my cancer or if I'm taking care of it. I want to go back to when no one knew about it when I was treated like a normal teenage girl.

"Of course I took them. I just had a bad night." I pause, "Enough about me, how have you been? finally out of the hospital huh" I say awkwardly. His face turns into a frown almost instant;y.

"You're lying, I'm not stupid Lillian. You bite on your cheek when you lie about something. You should go home and take care of yourself. I'll just call you later"

"What? You don't know shit!" I snap. I guess these meds really are making me in a bad mood.

"Go home. I'll let Johnny know where you went"He wheels himself back into his apartment and leaves me outside alone.