The Boy I Once Knew | Cobra Kai Hawk/Eli

Chapter 43

"I'm on my way!" He says, excitedly and hangs up immediately.

I should have known that was coming. He always does this when I'm upset. It's the same routine over and over. He decides to come over, he stops at the store before coming over, picks up Dem, he puts on a movie, grabs a couple of blankets, and sleeps over. Only this time... there will only be two of us.

A sudden knock at my window appears and I see him standing there with a huge bright smile on his face. He throws his arms in the air and signals to let him in.

I rush to open the door and let him in. He picks up a grocery bag and puts it in his hand and a vase of flowers in the other.

"Your favorite person is officially here!" He says, happily.

I quickly sit down on my bed as I feel my legs slowly giving out on me. He walks straight in and stands right in front of me.

I laugh, "Maybe the second favorite. Mickey Milkovich comes first," I joke.

"That's not fair. He's a fictional character!" Eli complains.

"That doesn't matter. Still the first!"

"Whatever. Good thing he's not a real person or I'd be hunting his ass down right now". I roll my eyes. "I didn't want to go through the front door in case your mom was out there. Seemed like she was in a bad mood when she was on the phone with my mom earlier."

"She already went to bed. But we have to be quiet because if she finds out you're here she'll kill me before cancer even gets a chance" I laugh.

"That's not funny, Lillian," he frowns.

I think I've earned the right to make jokes about that when it's become my reality.

"My bad, sorry," I say, awkwardly. "You really didn't have to come over, you know"

"Yes, I did. I wasn't going to let my girl just sit in her room and cry all night. I missed you anyway."

"Well, thanks. What did you bring?" I ask.

He sits down on the bed next to me, with the bag in his lap."I stopped at the store and got a couple of things." He pulls out two sodas and snacks."I got your favorite, Cherry Coke and a Mountain Dew for me. I also got you Reese's peanut butter cups and some watermelon"

"You're so sweet" my face is in awe.

He stands up quickly, "I almost forgot! I got you a vase of flowers. Something to cheer you up"

They are beautiful red roses in a clear vase.

"Aw Eli. You being here is all I need though"

The smile on his face could brighten up the room. He looks so happy and just...himself. He lays back down on the bed and scrolls through everything on the tv. 

"What do you want to watch? And before you say Shameless, I'm saying no. Mickey Milkovich ain't gonna be on my tv" he scoffs. 

I laugh, "Don't be so jealous. Uh, put on whatever. I'm going to go take my meds. Be right back"

He nods his head and I walk out. I enter the kitchen and hold the orange bottle in my hand, examining it. This is what I rely on to help me but it does nothing. Taking a pill twice a day so I can feel better but instead, I'm numb. Like there's nothing to help me. It's weird how my mood changes so fast. My heart was full and happy from everything with Eli but not even five minutes later, I could crawl into my bed and stay there for days. 

A single tear rolls down my face as I continuously stare at the bottle. A million thoughts are running through my head. Why take it if it does nothing? The side effects are shit. I swallow a pill for no effect. Instead of it helping, I feel worse. I snap at everyone and I'm angry or upset all the time. Half the time I don't even leave my bed. 

Before I know it my hand, holding the bottle, is hovering over the sink. Turning second by second. More silent tears roll down my cheeks. The pills start pouring out the bottle into the drain. The sound of them hitting the sink rings in my ears. I have no emotion, no guilt. 

I quickly wipe my tears and make my way back into my bedroom. Eli's under the blankets on my bed, scrolling through Instagram. 

"Did you get lost? That took you long enough," He laughs. 

Ignore his comment and stumble to my closet. I can feel his glare while I change out of my clothes, taking my shirt off and just leaving on shorts and a sports bra. 

Suddenly, my vision starts to go black and I feel my legs start to give out. I fall to the floor and that's the last thing I remember.

I can hear Eli talking to me but I can't see him or respond.

"Lillian! Wake up!"

I try to tell him I'm ok but nothing comes out of my mouth. How come I passed out? Was it because I didn't take my meds or.... it's finally happening.

My eyes flutter open and I'm laying in his lap, my head resting on his chest. 

"Thank god you're awake! Are you ok?" he asks, desperate for an answer. 

"Yea... what happened?" 

The last thing I need is for him to tell my mom or anyone for that matter. That may be selfish but I'm tired of living in the hospital. If my time is coming I want to spend it living my best life. Not being sick in the bathroom because of chemo. 

"You were getting changed and then you passed out. Are you sure you're ok?"

"I'm sure. I'm probably just dehydrated. I don't remember the last time I had something to drink."

"You said you just took your meds. I know you can't swallow pills without water so don't lie. Did you actually take your meds?" He demands.

I gulp, "Yes. I took my meds but I put it in..." I can't think of what to say. Nothing comes to mind. 

He rushes up, "You didn't take your fucking meds did you? God Damnit Lillian" he storms out of my room.

"Eli wait!" I yell. I try to prop myself up but I have no energy to do so. 

I hear him rummaging through my kitchen, closing cabinet by cabinet. 

Everything goes quiet until he stomps back to my bedroom, stopping at the doorway. I look down and see my orange bottle in his hand. "What the fuck is this? Why the hell is it empty?" He snaps. 

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a/n- I wasn't planning on updating but I wasn't satisfied with the last chapter so I wanted to update this one as soon as it was finished lol. Enjoy:)