The Boy I Once Knew | Cobra Kai Hawk/Eli

Chapter 34

Not one word has left my mouth since I got into that car. I wish I could say that I didn't fall for Hawk as hard as I actually did but he's been my rock since day one. From going from playing on playgrounds together to playdates then to sleepovers and actual dates, it's hard to just let go. Sometimes I think that he just pretended to be with me because of all the days I've missed because I've been sick in the hospital so it was easier for him to pretend. I've missed all the signs because I was already too far into his game. 

"Do you want to talk about it? You haven't said one word and it's kind of freaking me out" Cameron says, snapping me out of my thoughts. I shake my head no and he just continues to drive. Instead of giving him my actual address, I gave him an old friend. I don't want to go see my mom because shell call Mrs. Moskowitz and Hawk over so we can talk, I don't want to go to Johnny's either because he'll just tell me to snap out of it. 

"Were here" he says. I open the car door stepping out until he stops me putting his hand on my thigh, "I'm always here if you need to talk". 

"Thanks," I say and step out of the car, shutting the door. I didn't call this person because i'm not sure if they'll answer it. I walk up to the door stuttering trying to knock, deciding if I really want to do this or not. Tonight, there are no regrets. I take a deep breath in and knock on the door. The knobs twists along with the door slowly opening. The blond girl standing at the door in shock at her old best friend standing at her doorstep. 

"Lillian?" She says shocked. I can't believe I'm doing this right now. No more regrets Lillian. 

"Yasmine. Can we talk?" She nods and allows me inside. I follow her to her bedroom. Her bedroom still the same from the last time I was in here, her bed filled with fancy expensive pillows, walls filled with antiques, and a makeup desk with all expensive stuff not one drug store piece of makeup. She shuts the door and we both sit down on the bed, backs to each other. That's something we would always do when we were mad at each other. No idea why but I guess it was just easier to say how you felt when we weren't face to face. 

"Why did you tell me to lie?" I bluntly ask her. 

I hear her sigh, "I guess because I just didn't want to believe that Kyler would do something like that. Or that something like that happened to you." We sit there in silence for a while, "I miss you" She blurts out. "I've thought about that day every day. I've blamed myself and that's a guilt I'll never get rid of."

"It wasn't your fault, it's his" 

she scoffs, "Yea but I let you sit with him by yourself. I could never apologize to you enough for what happened"

Tears start rolling down my face one by one, "I never blamed you Yas. I was just upset because you told me to lie about it. We can't go back in time and changed what happened" I tell her. 

"I know. Do you think there will ever be a chance we could be friends again" she asks softly. 

I laugh, "Sure as long as you aren't friends with him" 

"As if. I don't want that douchebag in my life anymore" We both laugh. I'm not sure if she and I will ever be as close as I was but it's true I never blamed her for what happened. She didn't know and I can't hold a grudge on her because of it. Right now I need a girl best friend in my life with everything going on. 

It's already one am and Yasmine and I have been talking for hours just catching up. Turns out she has a little crush on Demetri but she'll never fully admit it. That's Yasmine being Yasmine for you. I explain to her about everything that's been going on with Hawk and of course she just tells me to leave him for good. If only it was that easy. 

"Screw him. You're beautiful, you could get any guy you want. Show him what he's missing." She shoves my shoulder. Yasmine really has changed. She said after what happened at the canyon, it really changed her mindset. I loved Yasmine when we were friends but she really was a bitch and now she actually cares. 

I stayed till about three in the morning just talking with her. It was nice, I'm glad that I came here. She offered to drive me home but I declined. You're right, I probably shouldn't walk home by myself in the middle of the night but sometimes it's nice to be alone. Unfortunately, the bad part about walking home from her house is I have to pass Hawks street. Shit, what am I saying, it is three in the morning, he isn't going to be out. 

As I'm walking down his street there's someone sitting outside on the curb of his house. Of course, it's the one and only Hawk. He's sitting there with a beer in his hand and his legs curled to his chest just staring forward. "Damnit," I say to myself. He looks up towards my way. Fuck I didn't think I said it that loud. He stands up straight making eye contact with me as I try to walk away fast enough. 

"Lillian? What are you doing out here?" He asks. I ignore him and keep walking. As I think I got far enough away, I hear footsteps running up behind me. "I'm not letting you walk home by yourself," Hawk says. 

"I'm not five. I can walk myself home" I say. 

"Yea but remember what happened last time," He says angrily. I'm not going to let one time not let me walk by myself at night. I shouldn't have to worry about guys hitting on me and chasing me down. 

"I just want to say I'm sorry," He says softly. 

"Haven't you said that enough" I snark back. 

"No, but I mean it. Can we please just talk about this?" I ignore him. He turns his head to face me. "Fine then I'll just talk," He says and he continues to walk next to me. "I didn't take you on the date for Kreese to show up. The original plan was just for us to go on a date. I was talking about it at the dojo and Kreese overheard. I wasn't going to say no to sensei because he knows best." I try to contain my anger at him but it just blurts out.

"He knows best?!?!" I snap. "He doesn't know best. He's an old bastard that just manipulates all of his students into his game." I pause, "Oh wait. you're just like him. I guess I'm as stupid as all of Cobra Kai because I just kept feeding into his game." 

He scoffs, "You can be mad all you want but don't talk about Sensei like that"

"Why not. You talk the same way about Johnny"

"Because he deserves it" 

"So does Kreese. I thought you were apologizing."  I cross my arms. 

"Don't disrespect my Sensei then. Also, you're the one who should be apologizing also. You left with that dick" He lifts his arms in the air out of annoyance. 

I laugh, "At least he didn't leave me there" Finally we show up at my place. I walk up to the door hoping he doesn't follow me but he rushes to open the door for me. I stop in my tracks looking at him. 

"We aren't finished here so I am welcoming myself in and were going to talk. Besides, it's Friday so we can just hang into tomorrow." He says confidently and walks. Ugh, this isn't going to go well. 

"We aren't together anymore Hawk. Go home" I whisper to him while following him to my bedroom. 

"You said we weren't together anymore, not me. Two people are in a relationship." He whispers back. We get into my bedroom and he plops onto my bed, laying his head on my pillow. I look at him confused. 

He laughs, "I never said we'd talk about it now. Come to bed" He pats the spot next to him.