The Fire Inside Her [UNEDITED]

Kabanata 22

Kabanata 22

"Hanna Kyle!"

With my gritting teeth, I didn't think twice and ran away in the hall to escape even though I heard my Mom calling my name. Kasabay ng paglabas ko sa naturang hall ay siyang paglandas ng luha sa pisngi ko na mabilis kong pinunasan.

No! I shouldn't be crying right now. It's been too long and I don't want him to know that I'm still affected on his presence. But even though it's almost months, the pain still linger in my heart. The pain didn't subsided and I thought that my heart is numb. But the pain I felt earlier is the proof that my heart is not numb.

Nakakaramdam parin ako. Nasasaktan sa'tuwing naaalala ang nangyari noon. I thought I'm ready to face him again. I thought I've been readying my self for this to happened but I'm totally wrong. Naduwag ako at hindi ko siya kayang harapin.

Nasasaktan ako. At ayokong maramdaman ang sakit na ito dahil hindi ko kaya. Pakiramdam ko sobrang hina ko. Pakiramdam ko wala akong magawa para matigil ito.

After a while, I found my self in the rooftop and the cold breeze of night hugged me as I sighed heavily. Pero ang hapdi sa puso ko ay hindi nawala kahit pa anong gawin ko. Thankfully, my eyes were not crying anymore but I'm in a verge of crying. I'm just trying to stop and control it.

Ayokong maging mahina ngayon. Ayokong ipakita sa kanya na apektado parin ako kahit ang totoo ay oo.

I sighed heavily before I walk towards the barrier and stared at the beautiful view of the city. Ang mga ilaw sa ibaba ay nagmistulang bituin na kay sarap tingnan. Ang ingay ng mga sasakyan dahil sa trapiko ay hindi parin matigil-tigil.

"Hija."

From the back, I heard a soft voice and I know that she really followed me. I know she's worried over me and that's understandable. She's my Mom after all.

"I'm really surprise." I huffed a breath when I felt her presence beside me. "Hindi ko alam kung magagalit ba ako kay Dad dahil sa sorpresa na ginawa niya. He's the witnessed how devastated I was that day. Siya yung naging takbuhan ko nang mga panahong 'yon pero bakit ganito?" Nilingon ko si Mom, gulong-gulo sa mga nangyayari. "bakit siya pa mismo ang gumawa ng paraan para magkita kami ng taong dahilan kaya ako sobrang nasaktan?"

My Mom glance at me before she held my head and lean it on her shoulder. Napayakap ako as beywang ni Mom at pareho naming tinatanaw ang tanawin sa baba.

"I know that you know your Dad, anak." She heaved a deep sighed. "he didn't tell me any of this and I'm kinda' pissed in your Dad. But, one things is for sure, your Dad has a valid reason."

"Pero ano naman 'yon?" Napabuntong hininga ako at mas lalong nagsumiksik kay Mom.

"That.. is I don't know." She tsk-ed. "maybe we can ask your Dad but I think he wouldn't tell that to us. Nakaya nga niyang isekreto ang tungkol sa sorpresa niya, ang dahilan pa kaya nito?"

I sighed. "I love Dad but sometimes I hate him too."

She chuckled. "Bare with it hija. Tumatanda na ang Daddy mo. Gumagawa lang siguro siya ng paraan para maging masaya ka."

"Do I look like I'm happy?" I said in a matter of fact. "what he did makes me mad at the same time hurt, Mom. How could we understand him if he won't say anything? Alam naman niyang si.. si.. Steven ang dahilan kung bakit ako sobrang nasaktan."

I bit my lower lip to stop my self from crying when I felt that I'm in the verge of it. Narinig ko pa ang mabigat na pagbuntong hininga ni Mom na para bang pati siya ay pinoproblema ang problema ko ngayon.

"He's the reason why did you take the modeling you want even though I stop you with it, right?"

Gulat akong napalayo sa kanya at pakiramdam ko'y umurong bigla ang mga luha ko habang nakatitig sa kanya.